She ain't heavy.. she's my Lighter sister... tra la la la laaaa!

[Mittz]

Well, I'm just here for the banter and a chance to talk bollox, and we also do weight loss, WATER drinking (I'm the 'ficcial water monitor, and I have a badge), and heart to hearts..

I am the Mittz(not Mitts), I need to lose about 10lb, but get my head straight in the process..

I am sure one of my lovely companions will be along shortly......

Double - just for you

Goobs - I made an announcement on the last page. I've eaten dinner and now I'm looking at Tom Selleck. Drooling.

Fanny - you'll be grand once you find your feet.

me - dieting, working, writing the odd blogosphere book review. and went to Harrogate Crime Fiction festival on Friday.

erm everyone else - Mouse has sold a house, saf is doing mentoring training, Fanny has a new job, Lizzy is on holiday, Crispy has come back from an erm adventurous holiday (2 times doctor trips for kids) but still enjoyed it, bitter is on holiday this week.

Fanny - everyone makes mistakes occasionally. cut yourself some slack. and it takes ages more than a week to fit into a new job.

Blahhhh!!!

Now if it was Bruce Willis I'd get it.

K boxing was disappointing tonight... a partner I haven't been with before and she was just very nice and I usually get to slug out my angst I didn't even sweat.

So I am still sort of keyed up... I have spare gloves if anyone fancies a spar!

I keep having snogging fantasies.. . I want to kiss and be kissed sooooooo much. And I wouldn't Tom Selleck or Bruce Willis!

SAF - That's just it. I do want to quit but not yet which is mad.

I am changing the weekly shop as that usually includes 2-3 bottles of vodka. If it's not here, I can't drink it.

I have decided to maybe have spritzers as that will be less units. I need to reduce my units so that in time I become less dependant and tolerant of alcohol.

I need to physically wean off it. 70 units is a hell of a lot to just stop with out a chemical replacement.

It was actually a MNer (jesuswhatnext) that said and I quote 'blimey - miflaw is right my love, 70 units a week is fucking huge!!' that I may have a little issue.

That's after MIFLAW worked it out once I'd fessed up to what I drink in a week.

Slowly slowly catchy Mousey.

SAF - not waffle. Support. Thank you xx

Which is what I need right now. I need the real. I need the harsh and I need the fecking statistics.

I need to stop pickling myself from the inside out.

I have had 2 drinks less than normal tonight which I class as a minor victory.

Off to bed soon.

Bsck in the morning so can someone do coffee? The kitchen is being ripped apart so I'll have no facilities for a while.

Night Lighter Ladies. xxxx

Double - I value your opinion. I know that you have it tough too.

Drink is my pillow, my buffer most days. If I can just get to 6pm, I can have a drink and everything will be better.

Until you get to the point where everything doesn't get better until drink number 3 or 4 or more.

Thank you Double for posting and for sharing. Life is fecking tough but drink won't change that long term for me. It will make it worse.

Today was my wake up call.

70 fecking units.

Enough.

Still here.

SAF - that's exactly it. I want to wake up fresh. Not groggy.

I want to be able to drive in the mornings should I need to.

I am failing our DCs by consuming this much alcohol. And myself.

It has to stop. And SAF, I think you are right re the weapon of choice. Beer does make me fuller.

As does cider. And takes me longer to drink that.

No way is cold turkey an option.

Right. Enough of my waffle. Back to cock and cake weight loss tomorrow please.

That is what this is about.

No more booze. Bed. xxxxx