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I need a private word urgently

Thank you for your time inbetween your little tatarta - just seen - are you Ok today - don't let it get to you will you!

Och I just hate sarky comments posted like that.... then just left up in the air! If she had a problem with what I posted then she should have just said so eh!!
I honestly didn't think the NHS would pay for a prescription to stop someones holiday period..... I though it was quite funny and a bit cheeky.

I was reading and seeing - funny and I do agree! The first comment you made, made me chuckle but it got a bit out of hand when she didn't see the way it was written!

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yeah, come on guys this is an MSN convo

C'mon I was just being supportive to someone whos supported me - no need to get funny but comments can hurt without always knowing!

What??? I'm not bitching Mosschops30!!!! What is your problem with me????

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Are you doing a search on my name to have another go?
I tried to help you on that other thread.... told you you could take the pill
Anyway... I'm not being followed around MN being bullied into an arguement by anyone.

Sax = You're doing well. And I'm sure once you speak to your GP you'll feel like things are moving forward again. I read a bit about that AD and you're on the lowest dose.... it can take 4 wks or so to take full effect. They'll most likely put it up slighlty and you'll really feel the beneifit then.

MOsschops30 - LI'd have rahter you had apologised for your bitchy comment.

doubt she'd need to do a search for this particular thread

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erm, just popped in to tell you i got your email QF and am now slipping quietly back out the door....

Thank you so much QF and I hope I haven't caused you grief by chatting to you - again I say you are an extremely calming influence on me and I thank you for all your support!!!!

lol true Enid!!

Sax - No problem.

QF - Gp still not rung, now getting uptight about it - so stupid but now have gone blank - have written some notes but now getting really worried about call - so silly but getting sweaty and uptight!!!! Why can't I control this? If she doesn't ring in the next couple of hours I'm going to ring the surgery and ask her not to, otherwise she may ring with dh around - that would be fatal!!!!!! Having a bit of a wobbly!!!!

Trying not to let this get to me but now I'm totally getting into one - Jabberwocky -shit - where are you - I feel I'm gonna panic - I have just clocked myself in the mirror and I hate what I see - I don't get the climbing thing, I haven't climbed anywhere, I'm not succeeding, just falling down my rock - sorry I dont want her to ring now, I don't know what I'll say - I am so cross with myself, I thought I was being really strong today but I hate the waiting!

I think I'll ring the surgery and cancel her and I'll wait til the next appoint. I can't talk again so I hope she doesn't ring now - it's too late now. I'll just put on my and keep on as before - I'll speak to her another time (maybe) .................sorry, I just can't stand the waiting! I hate getting in a panic about it and I can feel a panic attack coming for absolutely no reason so I need to cancel I think.............

DO NOT CANCEL IT!!!!! Pleeeeease. Got to go now... I'll be on from home later.

Sax

Im sorry if this is going to sound to harsh.

If you want to make these changes and help yourself get better then you have to go to this appointment.

Yes it is hard, and you need to be strong.

but no-one can help you if you dont help your self

xxx

Ok fuck it - no one else can help if I won't help myself you say but I thought I was helping myself - so what I'll carry on as before......................sod it, i'll manage, I did before! I thought I was trying but you obviously don't think I am enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You obviously think I because I don't do everything advised that I don't want to help myself - difference in opinion here so I'll just slope off and find another way to sort my head - this ain't working - I'm pissing everyone off.................

Sax

calm down

If you re-read what i said, all ive done is more or less tell you what you told me earlier in the week.

Its good advice, thats all

xxx

you are more or less saying I'm not helping myself in all i've done so far though HH which I feel 'has it been a total waste of time' all the effort I've done to try to come to terms with this..........? I think You've lost your patience with me which is fine - as you say Its up to me and only me - I was just looking for a little support thats all. sorry..... sometimes strong sometimes not - mmmmmm now I feel like a jelly so this ain't gonna work today....I was doing really welll and all - I don't agree that not speaking to the dr is not helping myself! It was me that called in the first place afterall so she's none the wiser anyway........

Sax

Im going to leave this for a bit because your worked up and i dont want to make you feel any worse by saying the wrong thing - which is probably going to be more or less anything at the moment.

speak to you later

Whenever I vent any feelings I drive people away - I'm so alone in my thoughts its so not good, I started today in such a positive vein I cannot believe it can change so quickly. You are just taking the perspective that I don't want to help myself imo Huggy just becasue you can 'tell' people how you are feeling.

Ah well, you've given up on me anyway so what the f* is the point in this post! I'm off to cancel the dr so thats that - sorry! failed again!