Recovering from child abuse......help needed

[adelicatequestion]

Hi

I have been having hterapy for almost a year now for child abuse issues.

The problem I have is no emotions. I talk about the abuse as if I was buying a bag of potatoes or commenting on the weather. I can;t seem to bring out emotions about it to process them,.

Daily I have panic attacks and wake up in the night shaking.

Has anyone been thorugh this. What are the stages you go through. Will I ever be able to experience emotions. I do cry about other things - sometimes, but am not an emotional person.

TIA

[Keziahhopes]

ADQ - you mentioned hand holding - well I have a hand - to hold and be held.

I'm recently out of a MH hospital due to my "emotions"

[adelicatequestion]

I'm happy to hold hands. Maybe we could get a great big circle of hand holders and make an unbreakable chain.

How are you now Keziah?

SC - Can you think beyond the task of moving house and what it will be like when its all done. Imagine yoursefl in anew house with no leaks, damp etc.

ADQ

[willsurvivethis]

I'll join in with the handholding too

[Keziahhopes]

Yep, a circle of hand holding, great idea - fancy starting a support group thread separately ADQ, cos I don't feel I can (my head right now, and am struggling posting on that one!) ?

SC - like ADQ's idea of visualising a finished move, better home.

[adelicatequestion]

Hi

I looked out this htread again as a way to measure how far I've come in the last 7 months.

And it's quite a way.

I feel more grounded and more aware of my emotions. I still have bad days where the pain and guilt are enormous, but I'm understqnding more about myself.

Today I had a massive panic attack, but I suspect it is related to my mum telling me something that explained a piece of abuse I remembered but could not place where it happened. Now I know. I was left alone iwth him for a night or two.

Hope everyone is ok. Please post if it helps as well as on the support thread.

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