PND SUPPORT THREAD*********Is this a good idea?**************

[Lindenlass]

I keep finding myself at the very end of my tether, posting on chat or here just to let of steam - just need to tell someone how crap I'm feeling at times.

Anyone else feel like this? Is a support thread a good idea?

Post here when you're crying, trying not to shout, whatever!

Ok, I'm taking 40mg prozac and I'm still obsessed that my baby is going to somehow be taken from me (by dying in an accident or becoming seriously ill or something) He's 12 mo now and I'm pg again.

I read about David Cameron's little boy and cried, really cried, for about an hour. Not just because of his loss but I was absolutely petrified that I would experience that kind of loss too. It almost feels like a certainty.

When ds was born I became very very anxious and i didn't properly sleep at all. I was obsessed with expressing milk and breastfeeding and reading bloody gina ford.

I am incapable of leaving him with anyone other than my dh, and only then very reluctantly. And yet i crave some time to myself.

surely on this dose of ad's I can't still be depressed?? I'm embarassed

bobbyswish how long have you been on them for? They don't all work for everyone - you might need a different kind.

I was put on them when I was last pg, in place of citalopram. I have an eating disorder which lasted all through my pg into the first 9 months of my ds life and subsequently into this pg. I've got control over that at the moment.

I want to go back to work. I hate being on maternity leave. It's so boring and thankless and I'm crap at looking after DD2. Just want to be back feeling useful and valued again instead of just some kind of unpaid skivvy. Hate hate hate it.

becki have the hyper side-effects settled down yet? I'm finding I'm quite dizzy which means I can't drive - great! Trap a depressed woman at home with a crying baby! Excellent plan!

Morning all.

Verso the hyperness has settled down ( left me feeling exhusted) but I'm glad that I saw sense and started the ADs, DD is not well last week that would have sent me over the edge but I can cope with it now.

Verso you are not crap at looking after DD2 you are useful and valued.

Hi all how are you all doing today?

DD has broncilitus (sp?) so we've had very little sleep but i'm managing.

Hello, checking in. PND diagnosed in Dec, DD was 11 months at the time. Hard hard day today. LO sick again.... has she really been on-off sick & teething for over a month now? Ugh. Bless her, it must be hard for her. But here we are at the end of the day. That's good. Let's all get some good rest, I say.

Hi how are you all doing? I am managing (just)

Hi - new to this thread but wanted to bump it a bit.
I was diagnosed with PND about 3 weeks ago and referred to a counsellor very quickly which I think is helping. Does anyone else feel fine some days and then terrible on others? I feel alright maybe 2 days out of 3, and start to feel like I have defeated it, and then I come crashing down again.
Verso it's interesting what you say about going back to work, I am really thinking about going back sooner than I planned just to regain a sense of who I am and get some time away from DD.

Hope you're all doing OK

Hi all, how you today?
I've got my first counilling session today and I'm dreading it. I don't know what to expect, how its going to effect me. And I can't stop crying. I need help.

good luck becki i can't stop crying either

things are pretty bad here. dh announced last night he is having problems at work and so has decided to resign and be a stay-at-home dad. then today i get a text from him as if nothing has happened while i've spent all morning sick with anxiety and fear about how we'll make ends meet

haven't popped in on this thread in a while, novicemama I completely relate to the feeling great for a few days then crashing back down again. I wonder how long it takes before you know you are really better??

I am going away this weekend for a hen do, and I am sick with worry about leaving DS. I'm worried something awful will happen & I will blame myself for not being here, but in the same breath will be glad of a break - has anyone left their child for more than one night while suffering with PND??

Hi don't know why but I don't like me I've stopped talking to people and I feel that my family would be better off with out me, I just want to walk out the door and not come back. And to top it all off DD is not well. I can't cope any more.

becki, didn't want your post to go unanswered. I have felt the way you describe, wanting to leave, feeling isolated, not thinking I am worth anything
you must remember that you are right at the centre of your DD's little world and she needs you so so much. You are everything to her and you are a good mum. Your family love you and need you. I am really worried about you, I hope you know these things deep down somewhere?

was the counselling session yesterday any good? do you think your counsellor is going to be a good person for you to talk to? I've just looked at your previous posts and see you've been prescribed ADs, do you feel they are helping at all? sorry for all the questions but you sound so desperate, I really want you to get the help you need to get through it. You will get through it, it is so so hard but you will. I am going to stay online all evening if you need to post again, I promise it won't go unanswered

becki sorry i didnt see your post untilnow

i think it's difficult for depressed people to help one another. this thread is a great idea but it's hard to be supportive to other people when you feel so low yourself.

but if it's any consolation i really do know how you feel. i have had very very dark times too. the ADs are helping me a little. how was your counselling?

novice i have the fine some days terrible on others thing. it's horrible because the fine days make you think it's over but then it comes back with a vengeance - i had pnd with DD1 too and had the same thing. it does go away eventually.

how old are everyone's DCs? my dd2 is four months and i am really struggling when she has a bad night. she's growth spurting at the moment and last night was dreadful. i'm breastfeeding and she's exhausting me.

Hi sorry about taking so long to reply the pc crashed. The counselling made me fell worse. I think that the ads are starting to work. I'm so sorry that I worried you Novice, I just needed to get it of my chest.

My DCs are DS1 9, DS2 6 and DD 25weeks.

Yesterday was my worst yet. I am really struggling despite the antidepressants. I cannot cope without sleep. I just can't but I have to keep going. I'm not allowed to give up.

I feel half-dead. I can't wean to a bottle and have DH help more because he has multiple sclerosis and the one feed he does - at 10pm - practically kills him as it is. He couldn't do his shirt buttons up yesterday morning for work because he was so tired.

I was up five times but I'm on maternity leave and don't have to MS so it is my duty to suffer. So I just have to keep getting up and feeding night after night after night after day after night.

I can't take much more of this. Thank God for the recommendation of a postnatal doula, who is coming to give me some sleep on Tuesday. I just have to count the days... it's the only bit of hope I have left