Onwards and Upwards - the cvq/ns support and hot chocolate thread

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Since we've nearly tipped the last one over the 1000 posts mark, here's the new thread for cvq and for her friends to help this lovely lady to keep on getting better.

very sorry

Hello my darling - no need to be sorry.

anger had built since what happened in the shop.i am so stupid.feel like ive failed myself because i have tried so hard not to sh and ive let myself and j down.
i sat in the bathroom for what felt like an eternity lastnight trying to sort me out.what a mess

Oh ns - we are all here for you. Try and forget yesterday - today is a new day. You are so strong - you have not failed. Start again today

I knew that's why you had done it

I feel so awful now, as when I got home from work I just saw that a new thread had been done, I did not read all the posts and just charged in like a bloody bull in a china shop, it was not until a while later that I realised what you had done. You must have thought I was so insensitive.

Does your mum know what you have done or have you managed to cover it up?

your not insensitive.please dont
i felt so crap about myself it built and i needed to get the bad out.sorry if tmi
yeah she knows.ive blood on my cast from trying to clean up.
god i cant belive im saying this
im so ashamed

Let today be a new day. No more being ashamed please.

its not easy for me to shake negative feelings about myself but ill try

I know it is not easy for you.

Do you think we try and railroad you into trying to make yourself feel better sometimes when the process is not that quick?

Holding you close in love and prayer.

sometimes.then sometimes i need a shake up.oh i dont know.there are times i think i almost pretend to be alright just to stop people thinking im a drain and pathetic.but i know everyones trying to help me to help myself but yes i cant just turn feelings off and on.i wish it was that easy.when i get knocked down it takesme a while to get back up.but i do get back up.

why on earth would we ever think you are a drain and pathetic?

because thats how i feel about myself so why wouldnt other people think that

hey ns....no one thinks you are pathetic...far from it. we can all se how very much you are hurting, and tryin so hard to move on...

the thing is...we're not able to give you face to face support...so sometimes we all just post messages which are sent with warmth and love, and try to sort of inspire, motivate, suport, understand etc...and i guess maybe sometimes they come across as not being quite appropriate for how you are feeling when you read them, if you know what i mean....

in real life, sometimes, no words are needed, just being there is enough, but if we didn't type, then you would feel alone....and you are not.

i guess we all just want to help you and mother you and be a friend to you, and to help you believe in yourself, and recognise your strengths for yourself, so you can keep moving forwards on your journey..

maybe you could tell us to back off, with the promise that no one is offended....maybe you could be more vocal when you need us, and we can just chat at other times...

i guess what i'm trying to say is that we will take our lead from you sweetie...no pressure at all.

i hope you read this message as its intended...

sending you lots of strength to get through today....

xxxxxx

you see melly, you have done it again - the right words!

thanks melly but actually im feeling like i need to take a step back from here for a while.to take stock and give people a break from me

I will miss you.

I hope you don't feel like we need a break from you, because we don't. Really, truly, we don't. I was away from yesterday afternoon, so I didn't know what had happened.

thanks bella.

i will miss you too ns...

its fine for you to take a break...of course it is....but do it because you want to, not because you are worried about how we feel...

no one comes to your threads out of duty...we are here because we want to be.

do be sure to stay in touch.....you'll be on my mind! xx

If you feel, however, you need FOR YOUR OWN SAKE, to take a break, then that's what you should do. You've made such a lot of progress recently, we're all proud of how much you have acheived in little steps.
(((((((hugs)))))))

Hi NS, glad to see you are still posting but sorry that you feel that we need a break from you - SOOOO far from the truth, all we want to do is help you and be here for you.

So, we will continue to be here for you when you decide you are ready to come back - we'll hang out the virtual banners and have a virtual party to welcome you, because we will all miss you while you are resting.

(((((((hugs)))))))))) to you and j
love and light surround you
xx

I am sorry you feel like this ns, you are not a burden, we would not post if we felt you were.

I will be here should you come back and of course, you know if I am logged on to msn, please always feel free to come and say hello.

Take care xxx

p.s. wasn't going to say anything until you received it, but I have sent a little something for you and J via Pyscho (was posted yesterday) so if she posts when she receives it you will hopefully get it by the middle of the week.

Afternoon CvQ

I am sorry I have been offline till now.

I hope you don't stay away too long, we all are here because we love YOU not because we feel obligation or duty but because of who you are to us all.

that yesterday built up to the sh but that you can talk about it even briefly is a positive sign.

You are stronger than you think, it can be hard to see yourself as this person but we are looking at your posts and can see the strength in you.

Please stay in contact with people and please don't stay away xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx