Onwards and Upwards - the cvq/ns support and hot chocolate thread

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Since we've nearly tipped the last one over the 1000 posts mark, here's the new thread for cvq and for her friends to help this lovely lady to keep on getting better.

i have hit bottom before but this is different.i drank myself into oblivion lastnight but i acually think i needed to do that to get back up.and i am up but not upright iukwim.i need to get mum to go home next week.i need to let her see i can do things or i cant do this bit.i dont want to do this bit but i am trying to take my power back and show this world and its evil that i can have better than this.

kezza no i dont mind.i know whatever i say will get read but at this stage in my journey i need this place so i guess i am beyond caring iukwim.and i dont mean that in an unkind way.

Good for you, you sound much stronger. What is good is that your mum was there when you needed her, maybe not emotionally but physically at least. Now you can take back the control.

Tell me about J, is he crawling yet? I have a ds who is 11 months and he is into everything. I forgot how much hard work the crawling stage is!

got a client - back in an hour

yes he crawls everwhere and pulls up on things aswell.hes very cheeky and i love him more than i thought possible

Hey thats a good thing. Shows what a lovely mummy are you

i try to be but im learning we are not perfect

ns - glad to see you are still here

you can and will beat this, you can and will be strong, you can and will find a way.

xx

i see a counseller next thursday

well done my love - progress

bellavita why is everything so hard. why is my life like this

ns....been out...just catching up on your day....

sending you love and strength.....

evenings and nights seem to be your most difficult times....maybe you can plan something mindnumbing to while away the evening...a film?? "the holiday" is a lovely one...very weepy though! "school of rock" is a brill feel good film..... i have both...will happily send them to you if you like...let me know if you want them.

keep your chin up lovie....when you hit rock bottom, the only way is up....you may stay at the bottom for a while, but you can't get any lower....you will be moving upwards in time...don't lose sight of that...ever.

i'm working in a minute...but will try hard to pop on and "see" you later...

xxxxxx

i will get back up and tomorrow i am getting this cast off i hope.so i can start doing stuff properly with j again.this hasnt helped as i have been feeling like half a parent.

I wish I knew, I wish I had some answers for you ..... but like I said, progress has been made today and that must count for something eh?

You are getting your cast off tomorrow - which will be another positive.

what melly said about the evenings and nights appearing to be the most difficult times is right, and I think she has made a good suggestion about watching some films?

Remember we all love you.

Right, gotta go get some tea now as I am back off to work at 6.45 and I need to get a shower etc.

xxxxx

thankyou x

hello, there. I see you had a better day?

a hard day but i think i have done ok and it nearly over.have faced up to things i have hidden from.i will take back some power somehow

you go girl. It's been building for a while though hasn't it? I think the river banks just couldn't hold any more in and flooded, to get rid of loads of bad stuff. You are a strong woman and you have friends and support here. Looking forward to tomorrow?

thats the problem...i let things build up instead of dealing with them when they happen.im not good at doing stuff because it scares me and i have to either have a little push or just take a leap and chance where ill fall.but i will get there again but i feel like im closer to square one now.stuff i have hidden away is waiting to tumble out and that is pertrifying.this is a road i am taking alone

yes it will be good to get this off my arm tomorrow

I'm willing to bet that the first thing you do is scratch it. scratch, scratch, scratch and then breathe a sigh of relief. You will let us know if it is?
I believe you will do it, that you can do it. You seem to be much more positive about finding your way again,

I'm desperately trying to get back on MSN to you, but it keeps crashing.

We've managed to get back on line. she has a large fluffy purple blanket and some squash and is trying to rest.
No doubt you will all understand.

absolutely. sending (((((hugs))))) and hope your fluffy blanket can keep you safe. Speak soon!

evening all
just popping in with some marshmallows for hot chocolate.
sounds like you have made some big progress the last 48 hours - even if it has been the hardest 48 hours for a while.

still with you honey. jjx

love the purple fluffy blanket - pull it round you whenever you need to and feel secure in it.
Have shedloads to do this eve so might not be on much but will dip in and out.
(((((((hugs))))))))) and if I don't get back, good luck with having your cast removed tomorrow!