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Anyone know how CvQ is today? Has she been in touch with anyone?

982 replies

thumbwitch · 29/08/2008 00:35

She was in a bad way in the early hours of this morning, has anyone had any contact with her at all today? Am quite worried about her.

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needsupport · 04/09/2008 19:38

ive got it bellavita.thankyou x

bellavita · 04/09/2008 19:52

you are most welcome

needsupport · 04/09/2008 20:54

is anyone here

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:04

I am

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:06

I am

needsupport · 04/09/2008 21:10

hi
my heads a mess.its lik a whirlpool.i dont know if i can be strongenough for tomororw.

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:11

why don't you wait and see what tomorrow brings instead of dwelling on it tonight?

needsupport · 04/09/2008 21:17

i wish i could bellavita.i need to be better.i really do and i know i need to do this again but jesus im in pain here

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:19

oh ns, I wish I could make it better for you. Could you not change the appointment to tomorrow morning so you have less time to worry about it?

bythepowerofgreyskull · 04/09/2008 21:21

honey,
I am here, I just wanted to give you some support for tomorrow.
I had my big Psych appointment today at the hospital and was a complete mess.
I was a mess all the way through the meeting, I am exhausted.
BUT
I have taken steps to get better, and the thing that is so clear from all your postings is that you very very much want to feel better.
little by little we will get there - I promise.

needsupport · 04/09/2008 21:26

js seeing the hv in the morning for weigh in.im so tense.i want to sh but i cant.js here
sorry

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:27

ns - rant away, that is why we are here - for you

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:37

ns?

needsupport · 04/09/2008 21:48

why do ihave to keep trying to repair my life.i never asked for any of this.some times i cann almost smell himhim.he touches me.hes inside my body.sorry being able to hurt me over and over again.in my mind and my body.
when i was small i wanted to be married an dhave children an d be happy.be successful an enjoy living.hes robbed me of my dreams and all my hopes for the future
i want him dead

differentID · 04/09/2008 21:53

He's in prison sweetie, but memories are horrendous sometimes aren't they?

bellavita · 04/09/2008 21:59

dreams and hopes can be rebuilt though ns, just might take a little longer than you want, but we are all here to help and listen

mummylin2495 · 04/09/2008 22:01

ns your post is heartrending ,i feel so sorry that this excuse for a human being has put you through this.You will succeed in getting well,i can see you are full of guts and determination.good luck x

needsupport · 04/09/2008 22:08

i shouldnt have to rebuild.start my life again.that 'thing' has robbed me and i will pay for that for therest of my life.however long that is.i shouldnt have to go through all this fucking crap.im so angry

Habbibu · 04/09/2008 22:11

Oh, love. Wish I had something better to say. You will beat this bastard, and you will come out on top - I just wish the getting there wasn't so bloody awful.

differentID · 04/09/2008 22:13

As long as you're angry at him, and not yourself- you did nothing to warrant what he did.

needsupport · 04/09/2008 22:17

im angry at him andme.cant see when that will change.sometimes life would be easier if there was none

Habbibu · 04/09/2008 22:21

Please please don't be angry at yourself. None of this is your fault. NONE. It is all his fault - he is entirely responsible. Please believe this - it's important. Oh love - wish I could give you a hug.

frankiesbestfriend · 04/09/2008 22:23

Hey there, wish I could say something to help but obviously there are really no words.

Just to let you know we are all listening and here, and to reitterate Habbibus post- you will beat the bastard and turn it around.

No ones life is ever going to be perfect, you can't make it go away, but I really believe there will be a time, soon, when you will be able to say life is good.

differentID · 04/09/2008 22:26

please don't be angry at yourself- I realise why you feel that way and I bet you think, why did I do that on the day it happened? What made me not do that? What made me stand out for him? and you don't want to stand out any more? If I'd gone this way or not gone there would it have happened?
Sweetheart, he is a horrible person, and nothing you could have done will change that. Please believe us all, YOU were not at fault- it was his actions, his decisions that have ruined your confidence and sense of self worth, not yours.

bellavita · 04/09/2008 22:31

I know from our msn chats ns that there is a lovely, bright, funny girl underneath all this heart ache. She will resurface again.