Anyone know how CvQ is today? Has she been in touch with anyone?

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She was in a bad way in the early hours of this morning, has anyone had any contact with her at all today? Am quite worried about her.

night x

had a bad dream

you OK?

hey ns...

sorry you had another shitty evening....

i can't stay right now...my little girl starts her first day in school today...i have to get me and the 3 kids breakfasted, washed, dressed, etc...and also label all her clothes, because i forgot to!!!

wanted you to know you were my first port of call this morning...

as arnie said..."i'll be back" x

i always think twice about getting involved in this thread as an outsider but like so so many people want to offer you my support.I really connected with what you said About not wanting to be 'this person'. from your thread i think you have the strength,, courage and bravery to fight to be the person you want to be even if it is going to take time. without making it your 'responsibility' i think one day you wil find that you have been and are becoming a source of inspiration to many many people.
Your track made me cry, i think it means a lot to a lot of people. i also like fix you by cold play (can't do links, perhaps you can give me a clue! duh!!)
music has saved my sanity.
depending on when you read this i hope you have/have had a day of healing and lots more to come.......

morning. Just checking in before heading to work, sorry to see you had a disturbed night. chat later.x

ns sorry you have had another bad night,i have a dd a year old than you,she lost her son to sids 21 months ago ,as a mother watching your daughter go through pain like this is horrific,she is so much braver than me,she has coped , i help as much as i can but she knows ask me to go further than over the road to pick her children up from school ,i cant do it, as a mother we try to help as soon as my dh is home in eveing i can do shopping etc so me and my grandchildren still have fun honest, but ns i wonder if your mum not trying to ignore what happened maybe she doesnt want you upset,maybe she cant deal with it ,its so hard been a mother,isnt it but ns you do wonderful ,you amaze me big hugs

cvq - sorry - I forgot to say to tiktok that you and needsupport were one and the samee, hence the confusion... Please do try again - just post on that thread and explain what j's problem with feeding is just now. Apologies again - I'm an idiot!

Morning ns, sorry I couldn't stay and chat on the thread last night.

I hope you finally managed to get some sleep. I have just had a few tears - listening to those songs (have to go a re do my make up now!), and I am supposed to be making a cake for our break at work this morning - will probably turn out as flat as a pancake!

Try and do your 3 things today darling girl.

Speak later xx

Morning NS

Glad to see you got some sleep, how has the morning been?

Would writing it down in a letter for your mum help?

This is the link to Mou's Song

morning
i dreamt he was kneeling over me with his hands round my throat.i could feel everythng
ive had two showers this morning

leaving some hugs.

sorry I not been about on here for the last few days, altho we have spoken on the phone.

I am feeling a little brighter in myself now.........still very angry with my feelings but the kiddies are at school and I can be on here without breaking up their squabbles.......tis nice to have a bit of peace.

MY CBT has come thro......starts next weds. looking forward to it tho. feels good to be doing something IYGWIM.

anyway.....................> for now, and maybe we can chat again later.

Oh Hun,

Have you emailed OnlyJoking or called the Rape Counsellor? You need to especially if your unable to let it out verbal with your mum!

thats great news psycho.bet your relieved.we talk later yes?

mnp i havent had the strength to email yet.maybe today.i will try

hugely relieved. I so want to be able to just drive anywhere I like again, like I used to.

and yes, we talk later

Great News PsyM5

Ok Hun, you will when your ready.

am going for my walk then back to try and get j to sleep

ok xx

Oh, cvq - just sending my love and many hugs. Hope your walk clears your head, and you feel up to emailing lovely oj. x

ive been on the phone today and im going back to rape crisis tomorrow
i need to let all this out again

Oh ns, so glad that you are going back to rape crisis. Yes you do need to let this all out again, and they are the best people to understand and listen.

thinking of you.

Oh, love, am so proud of you. I think that you may need to let this out again and again, perhaps in different ways - I haven't been through what you have, but I do know that when I lost dd1 I needed to talk and talk and talk about it - 3 years down the line and I still have that need sometimes, but it is much less painful. You are just brilliant, you know. I hope tomorrow helps - I'm sure you'll be anxious, and it will be hard, but it will be another step taken.

ps - did you see that tiktok replied to your post - hope you find it helpful

i just hope i can get there under my mothers steam(yes shes agreed as long as she can wander around while im in there)psycho used to get me there.my mother has a lot to live up to
even if i last 10 minutes it will be a start

am sending you the bestest of good vibes for tomorrow.

If your mum cracks under the pressure tomorrow - I will leave my mobile phone on if you wish and I can talk to you whilst you are waiting to go in? If you need the number again, let me know.

xx