i need to talk about something relating to rape - pls dont click on this if youre likely to be upset/have gone through something recently - last thing i want to do is upset anyone

[BloodySmartarse]

its just, for the last 24 hours or so ive had this horrible squirmy irrational desire to scrape my entire middle section off my body. it just feels so fecking gross and nasty. just want my whole middle section gone and off of me. stupid huh?

im sure its perfectly natural to feel this way

it was years ago i was raped. and i dont think i really did this part of getting over it before (or if i did, ive blanked it). ive just started cbt-based therapy to try to sort out all this old shit, and i guess its come up because of that.

dont really want to talk to anyone in rl about it, but i am so uncomfortable in my skin right now, really tense and squirmy, i just wanted to talk to someone about it.

thanks ladies

sorry to make a fuss.

You are allowed to make a fuss. Hope you are feeling a bit better now. Sending you hugs and chocolate.

thanks.

I don't know who you are (cf other thread) but you really are allowed to make a fuss you know. Sorry you;re going through this.

cheers www. appreciated.

oh, poor you - perfectly normal though. I have just been through an enormous wobble, though my stuff happened years ago - I go for epic walks as a way of getting it out of me - with my ipod. hope cbt goes ok - once you've come out the other side you'll be a lot better than you were before - it's just a huge slog getting there. Just keep your chin up, and post whenever you need to. thinking of you!