Okay where do I start? My baby is breastfed, seven months, absolutely gorgeous, happy and thriving. He doesn't sleep thro the night tho and will often wake three/four times - is in our bed. so not sure whether I'm depressed or just sleep deprived.
Am going to counselling cos had many problems in work situations - mostly with bosses. Was physically/emotionally abused by my Dad as a child so most likely linked to that. My mum is not very maternal and is a bit self obsessed/flighty so didn't have great support there either. It's exhausting trying to work thro my 'issues'.
Anyway since becoming a first time mum lots has come up. I have dumped a lot of my previous 'good' friends - seeing them more clearly now as not so good friends! i have made a lot of mummy friends - i make friends very easily but also loose them quite easily which I find very upsetting. I feel very confident sometimes and at other times feel really socially awkward and shy. I am easily offended and slow to bounce back in general. I think that I can be a little opinionated and cause others to be offended too hence the losing friends easily thing.
Anyway my mini novel is almost over. Bear with me! Maybe I should just avoid other people and just hang out with my DS until I sort myself out cos hanging out with other people just causes me to get into upsetting situations the effect of which make me feel a little miserable. Basically I am always searching for close relationships but never quite getting there. Do you think I am depressed, would AD help?