It’s sort of late, so whether I’m being overly sensitive I’m not sure.
I am a mum to 3 kids. The youngest has just turned 5 months old.
i am so tired & feel so lonely.
my wife works full time but over three days. She is part time but the hours she’s doing right now are beyond that. She leaves early and is back late. I’m on maternity leave as I carried our baby.
he’s a delightful little thing, but sleep is rough. Night time he is so unsettled. I have him all day, get the kids from school, sort them out, trying to juggle when baby maybe needs an evening nap to try and get him rested so he’s not over tired at bed time.
I’m breastfeeding and I feel like he’s on me constantly. He won’t take a bottle, or a dummy. I’ve spent a future on both. Tried a sippy cup with expressed milk , it wasn’t enough for him. He’s got a potential dairy allergy so I’m DF, but we do have some DF formula but he doesn’t like the taste.
im getting maybe 3 hours of sleep a night, and that’s with him waking every 20 or so minutes. my wife is brilliant but she can’t do much with work and then with me feeding. There’s only so much I can expect her to do really.
I feel like I can’t go on. I’m having the most horrendous thoughts. I’ve been discharged from the mental health team (I was under them due to Post partum Psychosis with our last child) they said I’m doing good. Yeah I’m showering and eating (just about), but I feel like I’m going mad. I’m sure my wife is at breaking point . She’s tired too so i have insisted she gets rest in another room but I feel like I’m so alone but what can anyone do when I’m breastfeeding? I don’t have any family to help.
im beginning to think I should just run away. Disappear somehow.
I can’t do it anymore I’m so beyond exhausted.
im scared as I got so poorly before, but if I speak to a dr im scared they’ll section me.
everyone thinks im doing great. Everyone on school run says wow you have it all together. Kids always on time, we are all showered and clean, homework always done, always smiling and the kids are happy. But I don’t feel it. I feel like I’m drowning and I’m so scared to tell my wife how I’m truly feeling as she’s drowning with work so I can’t add to that.
please can someone help me. Advise me on the sleep situation, will it get better. I hate these thoughts