Not sure what to do...

[IronTusk]

I'm struggling a bit at the moment, I feel disconnected from everything and keep thinking about planning to end my life. I'm not sure how but I've thought about making a will and figuring something out.

I've suffered from depression and been on antidepressants for all my adult life and I can't keep going with this. I feel alone and a failure.

I've just gone back to work after 14 weeks unpaid leave to try and clear my head, but it hasn't helped, in fact it's made things worse.

Sorry you're feeling like this, do you have family and friends to support you, would you call your crisis team.

Have you contacted Shout? It's a mental health service (kind of like the Samaritans, but you text SHOUT to 85258). I used to work for them and texting back and forth with someone can really help in a moment of crisis.

There is also a website called Reasons To Stay. You open the page and a random letter, written by a stranger, pops up on screen to help you. I have found it so useful. You can even pick a topic.

My Mum killed herself and I can assure you that a permanent solution to what is often a temporary problem is not the way to go. You condemn your loved ones to a life sentence.

Despite this, I 100% understand, as I struggle with suicidal thoughts myself even now. You owe it to yourself to pull yourself out of the hole you're in. But you don't have to do it alone. So please, tell someone.

Hi OP.

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