Didn't want to wake up

[Springtime54]

Now I have, it's the immediate panic and dread. Paralysed to do anything. The absolute struggle of getting through another day. I cant do another 40 - 50 years, I just can't.

So sorry you are feeling like this. Well done for posting. Are you alone at home and is there anyone that you can talk to?
Please speak to the Samaritans they are always there to listen to you.

So sorry you are feeling like this OP. We are strangers but I am here for you on this forum & sending you my warmest wishes. Do you have any family or friends with you? Or nearby? Have you spoken to your GP?

I'm alone, I don't have anyone. I'll try and call the samaritans later but I dont know if I'll be able to, I really struggle to make phone calls.

We are here. You’re not alone. Keep posting.

I am sure you can text or email the Samaritans or similar.

are you safe now? Can you message someone to be with you? Doesn’t need to be someone your close to, I am sure I am not alone in knowing if it saved someone I would rather then reached out even if we haven’t spoken for years!

No, I don't have anyone.

do you live on your own?

https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/?utm_source=google&utm_medium=organic&utm_campaign=onebox

what’s the weather like where you are? Can you open a window and put your face in the sun (or wind?)

Yeah

I haven't opened the curtains much but it looks sort of rainy and a bit sunny. I cant get up yet, I dont feel physically able to.

Have you heard of the "Hub of hope" app OP?
It is a free service that co ordinates all the mental health services.
You out in a rough location and it gives you the contact details if all local services
There will be an out of hours crisis team open in your area today.

@Springtime54 If you don’t want to contact the Samaritans you could ring 111 and select the mental health option. I get what you mean about not wanting to speak on the phone.
They will be used to contact from people who aren’t able to say much. Maybe you could say a couple of words and listen to what they say.

Good advice from many posters here. Sending support and positive vibes.

I second this, OP! Brilliant app.

Also, if you don’t want to speak on the phone, you can use SHOUT which is a text mental health helpline - 85258. Put it in your phone so it’s easier if you ever need it again. Anyone they have is trained up.

You don’t have to do the next 40-50 years, you just have to do hour to hour at the moment 💐💐

It just doesnt feel hour to hour because I know I need to wash and dry and iron my work uniforms by Tuesday and so far I havent even got them in the wash yet

Someone once told me to just focus on the next hour, not the day/week/month/year etc when times were tough. It really helped me to stop writing off a full day as a bad day.

Is there anything in particular that you are struggling with, or is this just a general feeling? It sounds like it is worth a visit to your GP once you can get through the initial crisis. For today though, please consider using the services shared by posters above. I have a friend who also cannot make phone calls, so I do understand the difficulty you are facing. The text message service definitely sounds like the best initial option for you.

I appreciate that. Could you set getting them in the wash as the goal between now and bedtime? I often break these tasks down if I’m feeling it’s too much, ignore the drying and ironing for today

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way and hope you don't mind us popping by, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health Resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

We know that support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.
We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.
We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section shortly. 💖

Please don't move it, it wont get any replies on the mental health section and I don't have anyone else to talk to.

I just really want this to be over now.

https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/chat-online/
They have a pilot of chat online. It might not be available to you though.
Other help
https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/if-youre-having-difficult-time/other-sources-help/

Call someone please.

If your message gets moved OP, please start another back in Chat.
People here are happy to talk to you. I know what you mean about being paralysed by anxiety & overwhelm and that feeling of not being able to act.

I’ve been here OP gripped in the darkness of anxiety and depression .

It does get better , please hang on and take it minute by minute . You’ve reached out which is a hard step to take , be proud of yourself for all the little things even just getting washed , if you’re able a little while later try get outside , this helped me .

Sending you love and strength x

What are you doing now, OP? Have you managed to get up now? Made a cup of tea?
Take it a little bit at a time.

Do you know what it is that's causing you to feel like this?