Looks like the org I work for is about to make redundancies due to poor financial situation, that will be the second time that’s happened to me in 18 months. Can’t see that getting better - the future stretches out in front of me in a series of increasingly short stints at orgs that are constantly having to cull staff due to shit financial circumstances or mismanagement.
Can’t sell our house, can’t even find a house we want to buy anyway because the market is so crap. Can’t see any future in it.
Car looks like it’s leaking engine fluid.
Everything is just so crap and constantly getting worse. In my life but also all around - every where is getting worse and everyone’s lives are so hard. Was starting to consider kids but two people very close to me have had awful awful pregnancies and stillbirths in the last year and I just think it’s put me off the whole thing, combined with the general state of the world. I honestly think it would be cruel to bring a child into such a crap time to be alive. And then you turn on the news and see the poor rugby player with MND and I feel guilty for feeling so miserable but it makes me even more miserable to think that me and everyone I love is just going to end up dying in a painful horrible way anyway. What’s the point of it all? I feel so bleak. Never been depressed in my life but I can’t shake this gloom off recently. I just can’t see life improving for anyone and I can’t see the point in any of it. Anyone else feel like this?