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Having some kind of breakdown. Please help.

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theend · 30/05/2008 12:35

Something is happening to me that I have no control over. I haven't stopped crying for 2 days. Can't stop thinking about dying, and how it would take the pain away. My head is totally messed up, and I keep thinking the most horrible things. My dp has just left for a night away for his leaving do.
Don't know what to do to get through the next few hours. Please help.

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MarmadukeScarlet · 30/05/2008 12:38

Call your GP and/or call the samaritans.

You obviously are not very well.

Are you there with your DC? Can you get a freind to come around and help you look after them/give you some space?

PeachyWontLieToYou · 30/05/2008 12:39

hi

best thing you can do being on here, well done (samaritans if you need 1-1?)

is there anything we can help with?

you really need to see a gp you know, there is so much help out there in a crisis, the hardest part is asking

hugs

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theend · 30/05/2008 12:42

I want something to stop my head, but I'm scared of going to the gp because I think I actually am losing it, and I don't want to end up in hospital. My dc's are here, god knows how they must be feeling, they just keep looking at me and I don't know what to do or say.

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PeachyWontLieToYou · 30/05/2008 12:43

is being in hospital (unlikly btw) really worse than where you are now?

Dior · 30/05/2008 12:44

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theend · 30/05/2008 12:47

Yes, and I asked him not to go but he said it was only one night that has been planned for ages, and that I was unfair to behave like this just because he was going out.
But its not that, I just am scared being on my own.
Don't know what to do.

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Dior · 30/05/2008 12:51

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CountessDracula · 30/05/2008 12:52

did the thought of him going precipitate this?
Do you usually panic when he is out/away?

GColdtimer · 30/05/2008 12:53

Have you got any friends nearby who can come and be with you? Or family?

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theend · 30/05/2008 12:59

I have just spoken to my mum and told her how I'm feeling. She said to get things in perspective, that she would come round if needed but I should pull myself together.
I haven't been like this for a long time, but now it's hit me worse than ever. Had been feeling bad, so asked dp if I could come along with him. He said no, and things have really gone downhill since then.
Should I phone gp, or go to hospital. What will happen? I feel very out of control.

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Piffle · 30/05/2008 13:03

I always call my gp the receptionist is good. Explain honestly that you are having potentially suicidal thoughts, you are deeply anxious and at home with kids unsupported.
they should get you call out or appt as urgency.
otherwise. Do call Samaritans.

Piffle · 30/05/2008 13:04

where are you based roughly could we help in some way?

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theend · 30/05/2008 13:09

I am in the west midlands, I don't know what would help. I know this isn't normal, am so worried that if I tell people how I really feel, then dp will leave me, the kids will be taken away and I will be seen as someone who can't cope with life.
And even when I tell people how I feel they dismiss it.

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Piffle · 30/05/2008 13:14

Please talk to gp or Samaritans, they have experience of mental health issues. Lots of us have been where you are theend we have been there and come out the other side. Some with medication, some with counselling some with inner strength and love and support.
the first step asking for help is the hardest. You will not lose your kids, your dp will better understand if gp diagnoses you properly. Men like official titles...
you can better please ask....

Dalrymps · 30/05/2008 13:18

Your kids won't be taken away. Your dp won't leave, will probably be glad you told him all the details so he can understand whats going on and try to help. By seeking help you will be seen as a person who us coping as you are brave and sensible enough to do the right thing.

Dalrymps · 30/05/2008 13:20

is coping

Sazisi · 30/05/2008 13:20

Number for samaritans: 08457 90 90 90
They are trained to help, call them

brucelovesfrumpygrumpy · 30/05/2008 13:21

Here is what i think:

I think you are depressed and that you need to get some help with that.

I think that you are feeling unsettled with your DP going away and that it has made you feel anxious and panicked.

I think we need to find you a way of getting through today.

What do you think you are capable of doing this afternoon?

Dalrymps · 30/05/2008 13:27

theend - you ok?

brucelovesfrumpygrumpy · 30/05/2008 13:28

Talk please

You are not crazy.
You are not mad.
You are not going to have your children taken away for anything you say.
You are not capable right now of pulling yourself together but you will be again. Soon.

You need to get through this afternoon. Don't think too far ahead.

How old are your children?

thewiltedrose · 30/05/2008 13:29

THEEND - where in the west midlands are you?

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theend · 30/05/2008 13:33

I'm not ok, but I'm still here. Can't calm down, was going to phone samaritans but dd has just woken up, I need to go out and get her some milk, and something for them for dinner but I need to get them all dressed and get the bus to tesco, and I can't do that rightt now.
This isn't fair on them, I need to calm down. oh my stupid, stupid head.

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brucelovesfrumpygrumpy · 30/05/2008 13:34

Ok, so talk to us.

Go on. Say the worst thing that is in your head right now.

LynetteScavo · 30/05/2008 13:35

THEENED do go to your GP. Get an emergancy apt, for today.

Would you like one of us to come round for the evening?

Piffle · 30/05/2008 13:38

could you borrow some milk of a neighbours to save you stress of going out?