Awful anxiety don't want to get up

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I've been suffering with depression and anxiety for some time now. My Sertraline was increased a week and a half ago. The last few days the anxiety has really ramped up again. I just feel like I don't want to carry on, I haven't got the guts to do anything to myself but the feeling is so awful. I'm really losing hope that I'm ever going to feel better. Talking therapy hasn't helped at all, I find it hard to put into words how I really feel. Because I'm so anxious I can't eat and feel dizzy and peculiar. Sometimes I feel like just bashing my head against the wall. I just want everything to stop. I haven't got anyone to talk to, I don't have a partner or friends. I don't know why I'm posting really, just to get it out I suppose

What are you anxious about?

I don't know, it's just a horrible feeling of doom and like something terrible is going to happen. It just takes over my body and mind and I can't seem to stop it. I suppose there's a million and one thoughts going through my head, each one making me anxious but nothing that I can do anything about or alter

I just don't want to live like this it's hideous I can't stand the feelings and it's been going on for so long now

I've tried to get help but I know well enough that no one can really help you. Ive had bipolar all my adult life now it seems to have got to the point when it's just depression and the anxiety, no highs anymore

Didn't want to read and run. Could this be the effect of the increased dose of Sertraline? I found it increased my anxiety a lot for a few days before it started to improve. I think you should give your GP a call - they will want to know you're feeling like this. It won't be an imposition. And anxiety is hideous but it can be fixed and you can feel better. Take care of yourself. One step at a time. 💐

Thank you for your reply. I didn't know it could increase anxiety at first so it could be that. Did you find it helped after a while?

Since you have bipolar, you should contact your local MH team.

Be wary of upping sertraline as it can cause mania.

I have bipolar and my anxiety got ridiculous until I started HRT which was a game changer.

So sorry you feel so bad.

Thank you, I only saw the psychiatrist a week and a half ago when he put up the Sertraline. I feel like they don't know what to do with me anymore. I suppose I had better contact them although I hate having to talk to them and go through all that. Just want to curl up in a ball.

I'm going to lie down with a hot water bottle for a bit and try and sleep. Anxiety always goes to my stomach and it's really upset. I'll see how I feel later and maybe ring MH. Just want to try and switch off for a bit.

To be really honest there has been a trigger but it's something so random and ridiculous that I've never been able to tell anyone. I don't know myself why it triggers me so much, maybe some childhood thing but whenever it's come up I spiral. It's not even me it's happening to this time but a family member and I can't do anything about it. That combined with increase in Sertraline could explain this at the moment.

Hi OP
I'm really sorry you're feeling so rough. I know exactly how paralysing anxiety can be. I get you, I really do

An increase or change of meds can definitely make things worse sometimes so as other people have said, please discuss this with your MH team. That's what they're there for.

More importantly, I think it could be game changing for you to talk about what has triggered you. If you've never told anyone and it has the power to cause you this much suffering it is NOT random or ridiculous. I promise you that

If you can't talk about it in real life could you maybe write it here?? We are all 'strangers', we don't know who you are and sometimes that fact helps when you find things difficult to talk about.

I think the minute you start bringing the trigger into the open it will begin to lose its power over you. And that may be just as effective as any drug.

Take care OP X

Ok I feel so stupid here but I have a phobia of teeth, specifically anything going wrong with them e.g. losing or breaking them. When it happened to me I had a nervous breakdown for 6 months, something about it reminds me of when my mum died of cancer when I was 6 but I've never really worked out what. I've felt too stupid to tell anyone that was the reason as I can't explain it, it just gives me an overwhelming feeling of dread and fear really really overwhelming I mean. At the moment a family member has broken off a front tooth and I can't look at them, they can't afford to get treatment at the moment and don't seem to feel any urgency. It is making me ill as they are presently staying with me.
This isn't the whole reason for how I'm feeling as it's been going on with the depression etc for some time now but it seems to have tipped me over the edge. You can see why I can't tell anyone as it's ridiculous that it could make me feel suicidal.

I went to sleep for a couple of hours, it seems the best thing to do because I can't pretend to be normal any more. I'm just going to rest today and if tomorrow is as bad I will ring the MH team. Don't really know what to say to them though except I feel bloody awful. What annoys me is I'm a people pleaser I've realised so I tend to say what they want to hear. I'm so weak and pathetic I can't advocate for myself, I can't even talk to people anymore. I've got to the point I'm too afraid to go out now in case I see anyone. I'm one big pathetic mess. So fed up with myself.

Sorry for all the posts and going on. I feel like I'm losing it and I can't even tell anyone.

Do you have any children?

live alone?

Have an adult family member living here at the moment.

Children are grown.

Hi, sorry you’re feeling so anxious just now but if it helps you to talk on here, then do it, as there are a lot of us to listen to you.
Hugs 🤗

Thank you x

Partner? Any kind of support for you whatsoever?

Are you children aware?

No partner. Children not really aware, I make myself ill putting on an act. I suppose I'm scared to death of fully admitting how I feel and that I would have a complete and total breakdown. I don't have any support no.

I just know there isn't really anything anyone else can do for you, you're alone even if there were people around. I suppose if I had a partner it might be some comfort but I don't. I'm no good in relationships. And I can't actually express how I feel to MH people, it never comes out right and they've never really helped me.

Oh lovie - that's not stupid. There's a bit of your mind that has associated teeth with losing your mum and the situation with your family member has triggered that response. Phobias are extremely distressing BUT they can be dealt with. Have you ever had any help with this or spoken to anyone about it?

I know there aren't any answers I don't know why I'm posting really but it helps a bit

Perimenopause? I have noticed that my anxiety has shot up lately. I am 49 and probably perimenopausal even though I don’t have any other symptoms.