grieving, feeling low, trying to support lots but feeling drained......need a little something for me please.....

[Psychomum5]

sorry....shouldn;t be here I don;t think as I am not depressed as such, but I just need to let it out, and not wanting it in chat and people giving 'light' answers IYGWIM.

I am drained and low tonight.......am feeling quite rung out and not sure on my reserves.

I cannot go to DH....he is deeply grieving for his grandma, as are all the children and me, but I feel as tho I don;t have the right to feel this bad.

couple of insensitiv comments have come in.....one from my aunt, one from someone I thought a friend, now feeling utterly crap about ((Flame, if you are reading.....tis P.....text crapness))

anyhoo.....am needding to pull me out of this slump and need something for me, so this really feels quite self indulgent.....but.....I want to continue supporting and I know that to do that, I need something for me.

help

you cry we are all here with you.

I cried, then it all went....I am too bloody good at stopping myself.....

I never let me go, that is the problem....one thing I cannot do is let go (and that is with a lot of stuff, not just tears...I always hold a little too much back at times)

(((((((((((Psycho))))))))))))0

I can't offer much help unfortunatly, i feel broken

I couldn't just read the thread without posting but can see you are in safe hands here though

shall i poke you in the eye! There are no prizes for keeping it all in. Emotion does not make you weak it makes you strong

oh, I am being so silly......

I am begging for hugs when there are so many women out there needing so much more!

but I do so love the support.....I am not ungrateful, I feel ashamed for needing it

oh stop it. Everyone is entitled to hugs no matter what their situation is. You need love you have got it in abundance from me.

arse

i didn't mean to make you feel bad

posted so you would know i had read and was thinking of you xxx

MoM.....I am so thankful for you posting, believe me.....dn;t feel bad ...I am just needing to recharge away from family and others IYGWIM.

I need to recharge, but I need to help too.....I can't do both at once (I am tho!).....I , oh, I don;t know.....

see....that is esactly waht I need

with a de-drunk-from-wine'er

lillee...that is the thing...I am at peace when I feel as tho I can give....I hide me then IYGWIM.

I would not not help....I feel as tho I have had so much from people in the past, this is my way of handing it on....waht goes around comes around, in good support as well as with evil people....I am aiming on the side of good so that the world will eventually get the balance of good to bad leaning more to good........

I just need a recharge, and this was the place to ask...I feel very conceited asking for it tho, it makes me , but I do know also that to give, I need to recieve, and to give in the way I need to.....MN is the place I come for me!!!!

feeling very and for needing it.

please take a MASSIVE >>> from me.you are an amazing women/wife/mother/friend.
be kind to yourself xxxxx

sweetheart....thankyou so very very very much.....means so much that you can offer hugs.

kind of a recharge in itsefl, as you are giving back to me a little of my energy.....and it is bouyant energy too as it is hig from helping you!!!

high....meant to say high from helping you...

....am not typing well...

Is the wine making you hig hig then Psycho?

No need at all for you to be bout getting a bit of support yourself. You flaming well deserve it woman!! From the small amount i know about you i think you are a lovely person and i more than willing to stay here and give you hugs all night if need be !

...a little.....

thankyou....I hope I am a good person on here.....am still a little from finding the other day that some thought of me as a 'goth'......nothing against goths, I was one in school (well.....an attempting one), but still, was wondering how people percieved me and I was confused at how I came across.

hugs always good...I LOVE hugs

never feel that anyone else is more worthy of hugs/support/wine it doesn't work that way, yes you can give give give and sometimes you need it back, i think you have enough in the bank to get some back you have been very supportive to lots of us here you know.
so here's another hug

OJ.....hug recieved...thankyou...and one back...you too are an absolute inspiration to us all here.....you and MB....life is so hard isn't it, and family too (and I know you understand about family!).

I just never expected to be the one in need right now, but then, noe of us do.....when do we get warning??? going thro life giving in the way we would hope to recieve at least means that WE KNOW that we are doing the best we can....even of others don;t quite get it!!!

((and please believe....that last comment is a rant at someone I have in my life, not on MN....flame will know who I mean.......I tell you this....MN is the one place I CAN be myself and not have to hide!!))

Well the pic i have of you is certainly not 'goth' like! And you are a lovely person on here and i'm sure you are the same in RL cos you seem to speak from the heart.

sorry they can't be real

my heart is feeling drained right now

you have given a lot of yourself out recently psycho. GO get inbed and cry yourself to sleep. i know that sounds odd but you need both.
Is DH home yet?

he is....he wants to go bed, and he see's me here.............

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh