i want to die. i am a crap mum

[newmummy27]

i am sitting here with tables in my hand, i really wnt to die. please help

just wanted to let you know we are here for you I have posted a similar thread today as I feel really down too but please just keep talking dont take any tablets

You're not a crap mum. Why do you feel so terrible?

Talk to us, put the tablets down the loo, and talk instead. I know sometimes life is just the biggest pile of crap. Share your stress with us on here, we'll listen to you. xxxxxx

Are you ok its good to talk ? Dont take any tablets. You are not a crap mum

have you discussed your feelings iwth anyone?

do you have a partner? does he know?

how old is your baby and are you getting any help?

you could call the samaritans

and your GP, you are clearly in a bad way

Have you got anyone in RL you can talk to/ cry with. Poor you. Talk here or call the Samritans. Life has lots of awful moments and it is those that make the happy times happier. Have you got a new baby?

Yes call the samaritans, they are wonderful, they'll listen to you and support you. Also have you got any family or friends you can call to come and sit with you? How old is your baby? Are you in the midst of the early weeks? Sleep deprivation is horrid and can make you feel like you just want to curl up under a rock. It does get better though. Talk to us please ?

you are not a crap mum....throw the tablets away and talk to us, what has happened????

I'm very sorry to read this. Hang on, I'll find the number for the Samaritans. Be right back.

i feel ike i have nowhere to turn.no support. all me and my husband do is argue. i think he thinks it is a game. my mther isnt speaking to me. my son has been at my dads today and his girlfriend was awful when i went to pick son up. i think she is jealous of the time he spends with his grandson. my husband just shouts at me. i am speaning my time out of the house wondering around shopping centres with my son.i feel son alone. i cant see a way out of the situation. no-one realises how badly i am suffering. i feel like such as useless mother and i am trying my best. i dont know where to go

Dear newmummy27
Stay here, and keep talking. The choice of killing yourself isn?t going to go away. So try to focus on just getting through today, not the rest of your life. Your coping ability is greatly weakened right now. You may not be able to imagine getting through this ? but you can.
Don?t try to handle thoughts of the future right now; just make a decision to get through today.
Talk to someone:
Samaritans: 08457 90 90 90.
You can also e-mail them on: [email protected]

Have you had these thoughts before? What did you do last time to get through?

Samaritans 08457 90 90 90. Good luck. I have to go home now (am at work) but will check in later.

Keep talking and remember you are not a bad mother.

are you still there? talk to us please.

You're not alone you know. I have depression and have spent the last week screaming blue murder at my DS and hating myself for being a crap parent and wishing I could shut the door and walk away from it all.

It's just the depression though.

my son is 5 months. why me, all i have ever tried to do is my best. how am i going to cope. i want to go it alone as a single parent. i wish someone would just grab a hold of us and take us in

oh sweetheart

we are here. just keep talking. xx

You're not a bad mummy, you are feeling overwhelmed at the moment. Keep talking and call the samiritans maybe, they can help and we can try.
x

how old is your DS?

have you spoken to anyone? a GP or Health visitor. depression seeps into every aspect of your life. with some meds and some help you could feel a whole lot better and in control

i keep cross posting.

Have you been diagnosed with PND? If not, then you need to talk to your health visitor or GP about your feelings. Get this sorted now.

Being the mum of a 5 month baby is tough going! Where is your dp, can he give you a bit of a break for a few hours today?

sometimes i go into the garden for a cigarette in the evening, and i look over our back wall, and i wonder what it would be like to just run away!

have you told your husband how you're really feeling? does he work? could he take the baby and give you some time off?

just trying to think of some ways to make things a bit easier for you. i've been there, i really have (though don't usually post that stuff under my real name!! )

i am walking around on autopilot, i even went to the hairdressers today to try to "fight back" at it. i am in a dreamworld i am sure. i cant live i my house anymore with husband,

Hun, i've had depression i spent a long time roaring at my dd and feeling like you. Are you close to your parents can you go round? Where are btw?

have you sought medical help?

and depression isn't anything we have control over, especially after a baby.

these questions might be useful and there is a link about PND.