i want to die. i am a crap mum

[newmummy27]

i am sitting here with tables in my hand, i really wnt to die. please help

I know you have said your mother isn't speaking to you at the minute, but is this justa temporary fall-out? Could you ring her and tell her how much you need her help right now?

yes i have PND and am on meds and going to a support group. but as soon as i come home my confidence goes again and i am back to square one... the only way i see to go out is to leave my husband and have nothing to do with my family. how on earth am i going to do that?

Sorry, just read you're not on speaking terms with your mum. If things with your H are very bad, maybe you could go to a shelter, and put yourself down for emergency council housing. There are alot of things you can do to get out. Going to the docs is definatly something you should do also.

why do you want to leave your husband?

It sounds like you might have PND. You really need to go to the Drs and tell them how you are feeling. (((((((hugs)))))))) you sound so sad, I wish I was near enough to come and help.

whereabouts in the country are you newmummy?

my mother told me to "take a god look at myself" she has been on holiday for 2 weeks and should be back now but hasnt rang

Can you ring her?
She may not realise how much you are hurting and if you have had a good relationship up to know, she'd be horrified if she knew you were feeling this desperate.

Ring her if you think it will be remotly benificial. I have a crap relationship with my mother, and she would be no help to me, but some parents really come through in times of crisis.
Tell us where you are, maybe ones of us lives near to you.

It could be that the meds just aren't working for you and you need a higher dose or to try something different.

It's good that you are getting help for it though, but it sounds like your relationship with your DH isn't too good.

How were things before the baby? Was your relationship good then, or still with these difficulties?

I know that some men find the whole adjustment to parenthood difficult, and they sometimes just can't cope with the fact that their once capable wives just aren't coping well.

Gosh, we're bombarding you with questions aren't we?

Can you get some support at home through Surestart or something like that? To help boost your confidence and self esteem at home. Plus your DH might also have his own PND kind of thing going on, he should seek some counselling too. The two of you have got this new baby demanding so much from you, it's natural to feel like you're not coping. It sounds like you are heading in the right direction with the meds and the support group, keep on with it, it takes time to climb out of a hole though. Be gentle on yourself and keep talking to us lot. Maybe someone is near you and can offer some practical support, can you give us a vague idea of where you are?

in the north east

I said this before, but it is important - Don?t try to handle thoughts of the future right now; just make a decision to get through today.

Where are you roughly? Is there any physical, practical help anybody can offer? I'd do anything I could if you were nearby.

You're taking steps towards a better day by talking here. Keep talking.

Can I ask if you have suffered from depression before the birth of you baby?

newmummy27 I'm in the northeast, near Durham, and have had very similar feelings and been on ADs, yuo can get through it. Do you want me to email you?

i am ok. i am not going to take them, i am just crying. how have things come to this. i feel so terrible. i am going to go and calm down, but will be back in a while. thank you

Also, just found this
newmummy

Family Link:
A befriending Scheme offering support and a practical approach to families with young children in the north east of England.

Tel: 0191 232 3741

Maybe give them a ring on Monday?

Have a cup of tea, curl up on the couch and watch crappy tv, sob through an appalling movie. I'm sending you lots of virtual hugs ((((())))) it will get better.

well done newmummy, you can get through this.
If you are suffering from post natal depression, you will get better, I promise.

And in the meantime, there are scores of women on here who know a little of how you are feeling and will listen and help where they can.

Make a cup of tea, check on your baby and maybe have a nice bath.

Please keep in touch though.

What a fab link fullmoonfiend, give them a call newmummy. Leave your baby in a safe place, and have a little time to yourself. Cups of tea a must in times of crisis you will feel better, come back and chat later.

my husband has the baby downstairs and i have locked myself in the bedroom. the problem is i get hope, then it dissapears again. i am a fighter and i have had depression before yes. i am starting to beleive that i wont get though it this time though. i am so ashamed that today i just want to throw the towel in and give up

newmummy have you talked to him about how you're feeling? I have to do baths now but you can email me sarah dot earl at virgin dot net I can't be too far away from you if you need company