I think I'm catastrophising. I'm in a horrible emotionally abusive relationship and just went out with my group of best friends. All have babies and pregnant and married or engaged. I'm sat with a dog that I adore and can't leave and a man that emotionally abuses me on a daily basis. I am probably catastrophising but I feel like they would be so much better if I wasn't here. Have nothing positive to share and just look in the distance while they talk. I feel I should erase myself from their life and eject myself from the horrible life I've created. Win win.