Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

@snowfoxglove sending lots of hugs 🫂 I can't sleep tonight! X

Thank you @Helplessandheartbroke xx

I'm so burnt out today. Even when I have some time finally for myself, I'm so stressed and tired that I can't enjoy anything. Anxiety and depression can also cause toxic people in our lives. I'm so fed up of constantly being made insecure and guilty. I'm so so tired of feeling flat and empty 😔

At least here I don't have to pretend I'm okay...

Sending hugs @snowfoxglove my anxiety is through the roof at the moment, I can’t relax at all 🥺

Sending hugs to you all. I'm the same today 💚💚

Sorry I can't be more positive I'm struggling today. Convinced myself ddog might of had an ear infection when he was pts and that I neglected him (one ear was gunky. dh cleaned them out every few week) had cbt and she's now referred me to high intensity so I'm on the waiting list for that x

@Whycantgiraffesdance @hk1993x @Helplessandheartbroke Hugs to you all and everyone else who is on this thread. We are in this together. It will be better.

It has to get better. I'm stopping the lamotrigine, I'm getting the coil out and getting bloods done tomorrow.

The nurses were meant to come see me, I had to call them to chase them up, I've not seen the psychiatrist since my last ECT session, been slapped with a prescription and left to get on with it.

The nurses are trying to call me now and wanted me to go up to the hospital to collect a couple of diazapam to last me till tomorrow and just have a chat on the phone. I wanted to give them the letter and show how desperate I am!

I'm now ignoring them and going forward I'm just going to speak to my GP, I see the community psychiatrist at the end of May so will wait till then. I've been totally let down by mhaats and their services.

Hugs to all, I've ordered a takeaway and sitting on the couch feeling like shit. Xx

Sounds like we’re all in the same shit mental health boat today! 🙈 hoping we all have a better day tomorrow, at least we are not alone in this ❤️‍🩹@Helplessandheartbroke @snowfoxglove @hk1993x and anyone else who needs a hug! 🥺

I've been like this on and off since December. Blaming myself and torturing myself. Somethings got to give soon. Sending solidarity ladies x

I've now been on the 40mg of citalopram for a week, up from 20mg.

I'm not crying or shouting as much which is good but I feel a bit numb, like I won't feel excitement again. Can't really explain it any other way.

I also can't sleep. Obviously I do to an extent but my Apple Watch says I'm averaging 3 - 4 hours a night and that's in little bits. I'm absolutely shattered. Hopefully will ease as I get used to the stronger dose.

I'm so thankful for this thread. I can have a moan here and you all understand just what I'm going through. It's rubbish there are so many of us struggling though so hand hold to everyone x

Tired of life..

Hope we're all in a better place some day!

The pressures of work, family, disappointing life and having crap MH is just too draining and overwhelming.

I can hear the Verve song in my head...the one with the violins...

Sorry you're both struggling too. Hope you both manage some sleep tonight. I'm struggling again even stayed odd my phone to try and get to sleep until now. @Sugarmole what are you disappointed in? Anything you'd like to share? @Imamumgetmeoutofhere have you been offered therapy?

How's everyone feeling today? At least the sun is shining! I'm not feeling great, in pain with a chronic condition and mentally struggling. There just seems no point, nothing changes, money is already low and almost two weeks until next income. Impulsive behaviour still causing problems, bought a large cage for birds, now feel it's too big for my home and scared I'll be overwhelmed when I have birds in it. I've been asking around regarding birds and now dreading people getting back to me as I can't afford to buy some now and scared I won't cope. I'm just ridiculous.

I'm new, hope it's ok to post here? How do you know when 'sad' has tipped over into depression? Have had depression/anxiety a couple of times in the past but been relatively well these last few years and am no longer on medication. Have been/am going through something fairly horrendous since last year which has now resulted in NC with my entire family of origin. It's the right thing for me but I'm so, so sad, trying to put a brave face on for DH and DC but it's getting harder to do and I'm wondering if it might be time to see the GP. Had a short course of talking therapy but that's finished now and I feel like there's nowhere for all these feelings I have to go now. Have talked a lot to DH and friends but it's been going on for so long now I feel like I can't anymore, they must be sick of hearing it. Just so tired of carrying the weight of all this sadness.

Welcome @Sayingnothing . Really sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult situation, it sounds so hard. In my experience, it is so hard to know when you simply feel shit because things are shit, and when this has tipped over into something else. But I guess there is nothing to be lost by chatting about it to your GP?

@Imatorturedpoet have you owned birds before? If you're having second thoughts can you sell the cage? On gumtree or similar? Do you have rl support? Is there food in your cupboard? X

@Sayingnothing hi and welcome. I think for me depression was dreading the day ahead. Space out and not wanting to do much of anything. It must be difficult what you're going through x

@ijustneedtokeepbreathing how are you? X

I'm still very much the same. Hate myself as per usual and constant racing heart and exhausted as I don't sleep well 😕 just want to cry right now x

Sending you a hug @Helplessandheartbroke . I am also much the same, though I am noticing my inability to concentrate on things more and more, which is definitely connected with the depression. Honestly, it's a bloody miracle that I haven't lost my job. I have the concentration span of a gnat. Still quite tearful and struggling to keep myself together during the working day.

One positive - I went to the gym today for the first time in nearly 10 months. I have become so unhealthy and unfit and just spending 20 mins on a bike made me feel a tiny bit better about myself - like I was investing in me, if that makes any sense?!

@ijustneedtokeepbreathing that makes perfect sense and well done you for doing it. I wish I had the motivation. I've not been in a gym for 2 years and I've gained so much weight! I need a gym buddy! X

Hi everyone,

I have been posting on General Support thread 1 since December (and a bit now on General Support Thread 2).

I think I have made a mistake. I tried taking half of Escitalopram about 10 days ago. Initially, I had more energy, and started talking to people again. But day before yesterday, I started feeling stress and dread more intensely. So back on 1 Escitalopram. I needed a replacement medication, not weening off completely.

It's so weird. I see "regular" happy people and I wish I could be them. This constant feeling of sadness, being burnt out, and dread. I wish I could be that version of me that was okay for a little bit.

@snowfoxglove post wherever you like sweet some of us are on both threads, others aren't. Can you look at changing your meds If you're unsure? If it's physical symptoms can you ask for propranolol? X

@Helplessandheartbroke I've kept birds before, but it's over twenty years ago. I like the idea, but worried about the responsibility, sometimes I barely cope with my one cat! I love the thought of birds singing in my home though. I could sell the cage if I could make up my mind what to do!

I do have some food in, I won't starve, thanks. Just need to be really careful for nearly two weeks .. and of course the big bills go out tomorrow! 😭

Today was a slightly better day though, the sun was shining and DP and I got out for a walk and a picnic.

Does anyone else feel like they can never be themselves? Or even know how to be themselves? I feel like I'm always acting and wondering what people think, what they want me to be. I wish I could switch it off. I'm looking for a book to help, but struggling to find something.

Just a few more days :) I must admit a cat and birds don't seem a good mix 😉

Cant help with books but yes I wear my mask daily x