Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

Same here! Fluoxitine and propranolol I'm on. Fluoxitine is used for ocd and eating disorders....(google) Ive not been coping too well tbh. How about you? Bless dd how old is she? Mine started when I was around 6, turning light switches on and off and doing my blinking thing that I still do! X

@Helplessandheartbroke i have propranalol but that’s for my anxiety although i don’t find it all that helpful. Me neither, it’s hard isn’t it? what’s causing things to be hard for you at the moment? She’s 4, turning 5 in a few months but the behaviour i’m worried about is that for a child she’s obsessively clean (an issue i really struggle with) one little mark on a clothes it needs changed, touches anything wants to wash her hands, her toys have to be the exact order every time she puts them away. She’s following a few of my traits so i feel like it may be my fault. I thought it was uncommon for someone so young so i’m glad to hear there’s others.

It's not your fault at all please don't think like that. My ds may be asd because ocd is also on the spectrum but we can't blame ourselves. Your dd is showing classic signs of autism there too so who knows where autism ends and ocd begins? It's all linked isn't it... its so hard. I stayed with my grandma and grandad for a couple of days during Easter and they didn't realise how hard it is. My ds has trouble with sleep too so exhaustion gets me a lot x

@Helplessandheartbroke we’ve had an autism and adhd diagnosis, the specialist wants to investigate for ocd. unfortunately no one ever understands how hard it really is until they’ve seen it first hand or had to deal with it. I never thought it would be this hard myself. my DD is impossible with sleep, she refuses to go sleep, ends up falling around 10/11 and is up by 5, she still wakes in the night also. it’s weird how much they have in common.

How did you get an adhd diagnosis so young? We have thought ds has some traits but noone has said anything as in NW they don't diagnose until at least 7. Ds also has hyper mobility too! Is dd on melatonin?

Sending love and a gentle hug to all who need it today.

@JamSandle you too. How you holding up? X

@Helplessandheartbroke im actually also in NW however i got her a private diagnosis in london somewhere recommended by family as we was staying there with family sometimes. She is not on melatonin yet, they wanted to wait till she was 5 and we had finished another course with the sleep specialist, is your little one?

Argh I never considered going private. We do pay private for SALT. Yes had to put ds on melatonin after 3 years of no sleep!

Hi all,

How is everyone? I've had a shit few days with intrusive thoughts and lack of sleep x

Hi @Helplessandheartbroke hope you're managing today. I too have had intrusive thoughts. I've realised I often think of myself as disgusting, yesterday I sat down and wrote out why I think that is. It just all made me very sad.

I'm struggling with impulsiveness as well. So close to getting for example a new pet ..

@Helplessandheartbroke hope your okay, do you wanna share your thoughts? i’m also exhausted due to lack of sleep and very fed up with being so anxious all the time and now i have to worry about some people who are coming to stay at our home in two weeks because there the messiest people ever and that fills me with something i can’t describe. i can’t handle long periods of socialising either

@Imatorturedpoet rubbish sleep I'm afraid so didn't help. Do you suffer with ocd too? X

@unicornwonders sorry you're having bad sleep too its the worst isn't it... I was up at 4 but managed to get another hour. My thoughts.... well I keep blaming myself for ddog having to be pts and for not giving him enough attention after ds was born... thats the main one bugging me atm. Re your house guests I find mentally preparing yourself for the worse scenario is always best. How long are they staying for? X

@Helplessandheartbroke you really shouldn’t blame yourself things like that unfortunately can’t be helped and children need a lot of attention but i’m sure your dog was very loved and well looked after. Only a few days but having seen there house (very unlocked after, drawing on walls, dirty, messy etc) i’m mortified my dp said yes when they asked as i spend so long cleaning and maintaining to a certain standard and it actually really effects me and causes me to be a mess

@unicornwonders thank you. You know how ocd is....

Yes I would be dreading this too. You need to start as you mean to go on. Do they have 1 room they will be staying in? If so as soon as they enter...

'Hi Bob and sue, upstairs to the left is your room, if you'd like to take your bags up there and get settled and ill pop the kettle on? Also shoes go in the rack over there and I'll put your coat on the coat hook for you'

This way expectations are set in a nice way but immediately x

@Helplessandheartbroke its an adult and child. but the adult has no morals and hasn’t taught her son how to behave etc. They will have a room to stay but they’ll be about the house too. I hope you feel better though :)

Been there! When a family member left their husband. Its was weeks and it was a nightmare! I won't lie. But just think, it's temporary. I need to get out of my head x

@Helplessandheartbroke that sounds awful, how are you feeling today? x

Hey @unicornwonders pretty much the same really. How are you?

@Helplessandheartbroke oh i’m sorry to hear that, is there anything you can do to take your mind of things? Exhausted as per always unfortunately

@unicornwonders does dd not sleep? Sorry if youve said I can't keep up with different threads! Dh isn't well so I'm running round like a loon (with a glass of wine)

Feeling fed up today 🥺 feels like I’m trying every avenue to feel better but it’s exhausting and I still feel on edge all the time and fed up of fighting this! Life shouldn’t be this hard should it?! x

@Whycantgiraffesdance it shouldn't be this hard sweet. No. Sorry you're having a rough day, anything particular on your mind? X

@Helplessandheartbroke no she don’t sleep sadly. Hope you got to rest too though. @Whycantgiraffesdance i ask myself that everyday lately but no it really shouldn’t be why can’t we all be those people who are happy and content and stress free all the time

@unicornwonders have you tried melatonin?