Anyone else sad and want to hand hold?

[Helplessandheartbroke]

Mumsnet has really helped me pull put of a possible breakdown and while I'm out of the worst of it, I'm still very sad. I'm crying to myself now so I can put on a brave face in the morning.

Thank you @Helplessandheartbroke . Much appreciated.

@ijustneedtokeepbreathing anytime!

In bed, had session 5 today but got headaches and I'm exhausted. Feeling quite low and anxious so looking forward to just sleep 🥹

Hope your all well xx

@hk1993x I hope session 5 went OK.

I've had a nightmare getting ds to sleep but he's just gone off so I'm going to get some zzzz's x

Morning all,

my first day back at work today after a few months off, I work from home so not too bad but still mega anxious.

hope everyone’s ok today. @hk1993x have the sessions got any easier since you’ve been doing them?

hope u had a decent night sleep @Helplessandheartbroke xx

Session 5 went okay, I'm not sure if it's helped? Like I do feel a slight lift off my shoulders but woke up this morning to a sore throat and anxiety 🫠 don't think I will ever beat this disease xx

I guess the changes might be really small to start but I think anything to do with mental health is a slow burn to get better! I feel better than I did a few months ago but the anxiety is still there as strong every morning for me too, I guess it’s still early days for both of us! Sending lots of love ❤️

@Whycantgiraffesdance I hope your first day goes OK! I've ran out of fluoxitine so gonna ring the pharmacy soon and check my prescription is in. Im shattered today x

@Whycantgiraffesdance hope your first day back is going OK! Good luck.

Am sat here supposedly working, but listening to soothing rainforest sounds and just trying to keep myself calm.

Well I've had my Citalopram increased to 40mg. Then being reviewed in a month

Thank you, it’s going ok, it’s nice to have something other than myself to focus on for a change!

hopefully the increase of dosage will help @Imamumgetmeoutofhere 🤞🏻

hope everyone else is ok x

Hi all sorry I’ve been a bit MIA, I am so stressed right now, the only time I feel half ok is hiding in bed. I feel so overwhelmed my life is an utter mess. One of the main reasons is my career, without going in to it all I’ve totally messed it up, a new manager started and is just toxic. I ended up being off for months last year then a new girl started, she couldn’t cope either so our roles got switched which is totally unfair on me. I feel like I get the brunt of the rubbish all the time. Anyway I have an interview on Monday for another place which I’m desperate for (I already work there sometimes) but I’m scared I mess up the interview or get rotten references. On top of that I’ve got so much home/family stuff going on and my health isn’t great either.

Last night I didn’t get to sleep until gone 3, then woke up at 5.45 in a puddle of sweat from a nightmare (I’m also peri menopausal) im so tired and worn out.

im already on sertraline and also have sleeping tablets and diazepam when I’m really bad. The tightness in my chest never leaves me. All I want to do is lie in bed, hide and not face anything.

@headache I totally hear you on the hiding in bed one. Hope you manage some sleep tonight.

@headache I'm sorry to read your post. I hope you got some sleep last night? The work thing is crap I hope you get on at the new place. It just adds extra pressure on doesn't it.

Hope everyone else is OK. I'm having a shitty few days x

I totally sympathise with the hiding in bed scenario! It’s like I go to bed quite calm and positive and then I wake up a shell of myself again and feeling like I can’t face anything or anyone! Once I’m up and about it’s not too bad but it just makes those first few hours horrible!

good luck for your interview @headache 🤞🏻

anything in particular getting u down @Helplessandheartbroke or just the usual stuff? x

@Whycantgiraffesdance missing ddog. Fed up of mundane life, waking up feeling anxious every day. I just want to not hate myself and be happy for once x

It’s so hard isn’t it @Helplessandheartbroke there’s only so much positive thinking you can do, it’s hard not to let your mind wander into negative thoughts.

when I was in the chemist the other day getting my pill the pharmacist was really lovely and was talking to me about my depression/anxiety and she recommended a book that she said I’d thank her for later! It’s called ‘why has nobody told me this before?’ By Dr Julie smith. So I’ve bought it! She said it would help me find tools in everyday life to help with the anxiety etc so I thought it was worth a look! I’ve only read the prologue so far but I like the way she talks so far so worth a shot!

just in case anyone else feels in need of some reading material!! ❤️

Hope your interview went well @headache 🤞

I sympathise with wanting to stay in bed too, I used to do that a lot, but make myself get up these days.

Had a bit of a row with DP yesterday about the future and not being able to live together, there are various reasons I won't go into here, but we just can't at the moment, hopefully one day.

Still attending with boredom and lack of motivation. Missing my cats that I had to give away last year, but still think it was the right thing to do.

@Whycantgiraffesdance thanks I'll look into the book. I'm not a huge book person but I was bought a lovely one at Xmas from SIL ill put a pic of it on later x

@upanddowns sorry you had to give your cats away they leave such a hole don't they x

hey everyone, can i join? i’m a young mum to a child with asd &have struggled with depression and anxiety since 13 & now struggling with ocd as well which was a lot of stress to get diagnosed. I’m finding things really difficult lately. Handhold to any one who need one.

Thank you @Helplessandheartbroke . I miss them every day, they were unique and I just couldn't cope with them after moving house, I was ill at the time and worn out from decorating. I wish I hadn't done it, but it was the right thing to do. I now have a foster cat, but she's very timid and also lashes out if I touch her, well some of the time anyway. It's not the same, but I'm trying to love her.

@unicornwonders hi and welcome! I also have ocd and gad and an asd son who's 4! We will have a lot to talk about x

@upanddowns I wish we hadn't had ddog pts but I also know it was the right thing to do, it doesn't make it ant easier though does it? X

@Helplessandheartbroke Thank you, i have a DD but we do indeed. she has autism and adhd, what about your little one?

@unicornwonders I'll pm you if that's ok?

Are you on meds for your ocd? X

How is everyone this morning? X

@Helplessandheartbroke yeah that’s fine :) They put me on fluoxetine for it but i’ve been on that previously for my depression so i was a bit confused why it’s used for OCD, It’s been a big struggle trying to adjust to everything and not let all the feelings etc control me, my DD is actually showing signs of OCD behaviour and i have managed to convince myself it’s from watching me. How is everything with your ocd and your little boy, do you manage ok?