My DD (17) has very complex health issues and this all started 13 years ago. I gave up my career to become her carer and I love her more than words could ever express. She was admitted to hospital 2 weeks ago and we spent nearly a week in hospital, it was so hard. Although she’s 17 she is still under a paediatrician and will be for sometime, she found it so difficult to adapt to the change and the nurses tried so hard with timetables and visuals but nothing helped. Along with her long lists of other diagnoses we have now been told that she has diabetes, she is on insulin so I have to weigh and carb count all her food, inject her with insulin and then she can eat. I’m finding everything so hard to deal with, we’re in the process of buying a house and we’re struggling with the freeholder. Although I gave up my career I work part time with DH and I haven’t been able to go into work because I’m trying to constantly keep on top of medications and weighing food. I’m trying to work from home but everything is getting on top of me. I miss going to work as it was my escape but I also don’t want to go in because I’m finding it overwhelming just getting out of bed. I’m finding my house disorganised and it feels like we’re all on top of each other at the moment, it feels smaller than it ever has before. I don’t feel I’m explaining myself and to what extent I’m finding it difficult to cope but yesterday, I just wanted to end it all. I wouldn’t have done it but I really felt that I just can’t do this anymore. I love my DD and I have never felt this overwhelmed even with the diagnosis she has been given time and time again but this time I feel angry at life for constantly throwing curveballs at me, I just need a break from life. I’m not expecting anyone to be able to make this better, I guess I just want a rant.