Please talk

[purpleme12]

I really need some company
Please can someone keep me company

Wine sounds good. Self care is important, there's not much you can do until Monday. Once you started the process of trying to get some support for your daughter, you'll feel so much better.

Never any need for a "sorry"... it's why we're here. There was a thread the other day about times when we've been helped through "stuff" on here. It's the best thing about MN - usually the only people replying to someone who's having a tough time, will be empathetic & caring. Even though we're all random strangers - we have various struggles & challenges in common & it's really good to know that we're not alone. There's always someone hovering, obviously much better if they have cats too of course😻😻😻there's no "quota" or limit to whatever you feel like posting anytime. I hope you get some rest tonight😴

Hi @purpleme12 - don't want to intrude & hope I didn't kill your thread. Just checking in...

I don't really look forward to getting up anymore.
I wish I could stay in bed.
But I can't. Every day I've got my child. She wants to see her dad more. I'm pretty sure she hates it here and he's seen as the magic parent cos she sees him less and she wants to see him more.
Whenever things don't go her way she says I want to call daddy - so she can say this is happening to him- I had to stop that as that wasn't healthy as he doesn't back me up.
I'm sure she knows we don't work together and he hates me and I'm sure she plays on that.
She's such hard work and I know I'm failing. I have no idea if I'm doing anything right anymore.
I can't cope with the attitude. Everyone else's child seems so well behaved. I have no idea how to stop the behaviour. She's very defiant. Nothing really works. But I know I'm just at the end of my tether too.
I had a weekend away with my child at my friend's. It was lovely. I was less alone.
Then we come back, the behaviour's the same and it's always me dealing with it.
She probably blames me that her dad isn't here.
She'll probably end up hating me.
Someone else would probably be able to deal with it better than me.

Even when she's hungry/thirsty and we're out, she'll go on and on. It doesn't matter that we're on the way home and I don't give in etc. Tiring

So many things are met with resistance or anger.
If I push more sometimes it doesn't help as it makes it worse. Getting to bed takes an age as she manages to do this and that with putting the babies to bed. She decided she doesn't want to go to the playground tomorrow because she doesn't like sandwiches now. Sounds such a stupid small thing but it's another thing to overcome, her to get angry about. I know I'm failing at this now

Reading your last 3 posts, you put yourself down so much. You blame yourself for so much.
Please be kinder to yourself. You are a single mum doing your best.
Your dd sounds like she's has some problems to deal with surrounding her dad leaving but you are only human and you can't do it all.
Take it one day at a time, bit by bit xxx