I need help, what will the crisis team do?

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I'm in such a mess. Ptsd is killing me. I've been self harming tonight and I'm finding it hard to distract myself. My gp has said to ring the crisis team but tbh I'm terrified. What will they do? I can't deal with people coming to my house so I guess it would be a wasted phone call? God I just want to be normal

They probably wont come to your house. They will talk through any distraction techniques with you, and suggest things you can do to get through the moment. They can also just listen to you vent too, if that is what you need.

Please give them a try. You have nothing to lose.

They may be able to get you access to some services earlier than your gp might? Talk to them to find out. They may be in touch with the community psychiatry team - I don’t think you would lose anything by engaging and finding out what they could do to help. I hope you can get the help you need.

I have CPTSD, no self harming here though. Crisis team (apart from the last time, they were a bit overwhelmed and I just had phone calls which was actually OK until my case manager came back) have done various things.

So home visits (once, or twice daily), medication to help me sleep, helped me prepare food, ensure my living situation was safe (it was 8 degrees when they came in apparently), helped me get access to things I needed such as food, medication (non mental health), waited whilst I washed, helped me come up with a crisis plan, helped me use it, supported me to come out of the episode.

I can't deal with people coming to my house so I guess it would be a wasted phone call?

They are used to this - so please you ask what they suggest, you may be able to go and see them, or they may talk to you through a downstairs window if it's safe (confidential) enough, or they may ask you to chose the best place for them to be (sometimes some of them always want to be near a door though which I find helpful).

When I phoned crisis they didn't come to my house. They talked me through my safety plan and made sure I was safe.
If you feel you might harm yourself badly then surely it's best if someone comes to see you. They will be kind.
Could you call Samaritans, just to have a kind, non judgemental person listen to you?

Hugs handhold try calling them explain as you’ve done here even if they just listen you’ve done a huge step,

Thank you for your replies. I haven't managed to pick the phone up yet, I know I'm pathetic.

I don't know you, but from the little you've said you don't sound pathetic.
It takes a huge amount of courage to pick up the phone and admit you're struggling. Take your time

Please pick up the phone if you have not already done it. They will work with you in a way that works for you.

You have nothing to lose. Please call the crisis team.

Sending best wishes to you for a sustained recovery.

DD found the Samaritans to be the best!

The Crisis team were brilliant for me, in retrospect.

i chose to go to to appointments- and they were daily to start with - at their offices rather than in my home, as I liked having one thing I left the house for and committed to. Not sure if that would be an option for you. They did do one home visit in the second week.

I called the emergency number once during a very scary wobble one night and though I can’t remember much about the conversation, I know it was helpful.

All the very best to you.

How are you feeling this morning, OP?

Massive handhold and huge unmumsnetty hug from me here 💕

How are you? Hugs your not forgotten.

Thank you all again, it helps to know I'm not completely alone. I did manage to call, waiting for a call back still though. I didn't manage any sleep so I look as shite as a feel today

I've been thinking about you too, I hope they call back soon. Sorry you didn't sleep, hopefully they'll help with that.

They did eventually call. And advised me to have a bath and a hot drink to distract myself. Oh and use antiseptic on the cuts. I don't know whether to laugh manically or sob. Frankly the cuts becoming septic and killing me seems like a better option right now.
I can't even watch tv with the kids as it's like watching what happened on repeat. The thought of spending another night pacing the house is killing me. I'm just in a constant nightmare

They did eventually call. And advised me to have a bath and a hot drink to distract myself.

Thats why DD found the Samaritans the best! Our crisis line tells people to make a cup of tea. She pointed out to them once, that some people self harm with a kettle; so it was the worst advice to give them!

I'm so sorry your dd had to listen to that too. I guess it must be a standard thing for them to say? I mean if I could distract myself with a hot drink I wouldn't have a phoned them in the first place. It feels like no one is in my corner and I'm just stuck living in this hell.

That sounds shit and like they fobbed you off. Maybe try calling back, I know they really helped my sister when she was having a hard time, brought her sleeping tablets (a couple at a time). Really feel for you, it's awful when you are in a crisis and you feel people aren't taking you seriously.

Sorry you got such a shit response, so typical of mental health crisis teams.
I often feel they just don’t get it. I have Cptsd too and know how relentless it can be and the intensity of feeling and people don’t understand that nothing works, no distraction really works.

I tend to knock myself out with alcohol or diazepam, though it’s often a battle to get the doctor to give it to me.

I can’t really offer any advice, just you are not alone. And it’s a really shit condition that unfortunately is often misunderstood.

I'm sorry you go through this too.
I feel like I've tried everything. My life is so restricted because of what happened but I'm supposed to live like this permanently. I would give anything for something to knock me out so I could get some sleep. Even with a sleeping pill the most I've managed is 3 hours. I'm a wreck.
Will the crisis team tell the gp that I called them?

When I have called mine in the blurb at the beginning they say they will inform gp, though as far as I’m aware they never have. Gp has never mentioned it.

It's worth trying the crisis team again. They will work shifts and have a number of people on so chances are you got a dud last time and can speak to someone today who you might find a bit more helpful. I hope things get better for you soon x

I know you're right about trying again but it took me so long so work up the nerve to ring the first time I just can't face it again