I didn’t know what it even meant but suddenly feel as if I’m fading away.
one teen off being independent, one teen always on computer.
Dh exhausted and tho he is tryin more to be jolly, all he can really manage is tv and early bed.
doesn’t seem much fun.
mum recently died so huge guilt about that.
im very aware that I’m nearly 60. Starting a new job ( yay) but super self conscious as the boss is about 35. Feeling self consciously old and exhausted and so so past it.
I feel like I’ve been trying to achieve, motivate myself for decades and not got anywhere. Still haven’t painted the skirting boards in 10 years!
I just don’t feel like me. I don’t feel like anyone. I don’t recognise myself in the mirror . My body has changed with illness and age. and the last 17 years since kids feel like they were a blur of grey and housework.
I saw pictures of myself pre kids or with babies and I had created a career and an identity, it felt like. Now I just feel..worn out I think. And empty. Can’t get interested in anything, even though I try and gee myself up. It all seems so much effort.
help! How do I create myself again, how do I get energy and interest again?!