Name changed. I don't know how to go on. There is something wrong with me for sure, I think probably autism or aspergers. I can't get my life together, no matter how hard I try. I adore my daughter so much and that only compounds the issue because I can't create a good life for her. She can live with her father and my parents. This is an emotional thing in that things are very tough right now, but also systemic - things have been difficult my whole life. I am too strange to function properly. I have no relationships where I can be honest about what's happening to me. I don't want to burden anybody.