If you could go to sleep today and never wake up again would you be OK with that?

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Just that really. Curious to know how many people feel this way. I'm not about to do myself harm, I just feel like I wouldn't be scared or sad.

if I could erase my ever existence I would, I’m just an utter waste of the earth’s precious resources.

I bet your children don't think so. That is so sad to read that you feel that way.

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I felt like this as a child and a young adult, until I met my first husband. When somebody loves you and you love them it makes all the difference.

Lots of ups and downs since then including a long period of deep grieving, but I’ve never had that apathy again. I think I can thank DC for much of my resilience.

Yes. Doesn't mean my life isn't worthwhile or I don't deserve to be here but it's really not that great.

No and the reason for that is I have nearly died twice! So I feel I have been given extra time here.Some days obv you feel a bit low .Thats to be expected . All you who say yes ,please know that you are here for a reason and this is your chance .

It's my most common wish at the moment to never wake up. There is absolutely nothing in this world worth the drudgery and pain of existence. I have no kids or partner so no guilt. I don't think I've ever felt love and I'm not sure I'm capable of love. Sleep would be a blessed relief.

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Absolutely not, I'd be devastated. Are you receiving any mental health support?

Well you wouldn't be devastated would you, because you'd know nothing about it.

Yes it really wouldn’t bother me. No more stress or pain.

Good god, no. I love life and have so much more that I want to do.

I'm not worthwhile.

I would be fine with that. I’m literally just an unpaid servant for my husband and child. I exist only to further the ambitions of others, there’s nothing in my life for me. I have no chance of finding love or happiness because I’m trapped by my obligations. I would happily go to sleep and not wake up.

Yes, I hope for that every night. I do have long standing depression, and am receiving treatment, but it all feels so hopeless and I'm tired of fighting.

Yes. It would be a relief.

No. My mental health is a mess right now but I have young kids so of course I want to see them grow into fine adults.

Yes

If I didn't have a child I would consider it. Especially with the ongoing never ending covid shit. Had enough!

Yes, except I have kids, so no. But I regularly fantasise about it. I've had enough. Really had enough. I don't see things getting better, only worse. I would love to be able to say, ' I'm done'.

God no! There's still so much to do and see, people (and animals!) to love... We're blessed to be given a life... every day you get the chance to make your life mean something.

How sad that so many people want to just disappear...

It even makes sense to me. I have no idea what 'zest' for life means, it feels more like I'm annoyed I have responsibility for my own life and apologise for my existence. I'm very antithesis of fun and joy.

Actually, my life is pretty comfortable, I just don't understand what I'm here for and what good things I can do for people.

Have kids and loving husband, but even big part of me thinks, if I don't wake up, they'd be obviously miserable for a bit then they'd find someone far more useful to join their family and would be better off as result ultimately.

I don't think about ending it all - but if someone asked me "How do you find joy in life?" and I'd have no idea.

Yes I would absolutely sign up for this if it was just me, but the impact on my kids if I wasn’t around would stop me.

Sometimes I find myself with a knot in my stomach and that kind of lurching feeling you get when you’re dreading something. And then I realise that the thing I’m dreading is the rest of my life

There’s nothing even particularly bad about my life tbh. I’m just so tired of it all that I can’t really find the enthusiasm to look forward to it.

I always thought it was weird how people would sue the doctor over a misdiagnosis when it turned out they didn’t have a terminal illness, but I can kind of see how having a time limit might make you appreciate what you had left and that suddenly being given back these vast swathes of time that you now have to fill is a scary prospect. I know that sounds insensitive to anyone who’s lost someone (both my parents died of cancer so I do have some experience of this).

Yes, if I didn't have anyone else who depends on me to consider (no kids but I need to provide care for my elderly parents and am an only child). I don't have any mental health issues just have nothing joyful in my life going on to make it worthwhile anymore.

No I'm grateful for my life and would like to live as long as possible

I have felt like that but now I'm on the right medication I don't. I still have things to do in my life.
Its important to get help and follow it up.

Yes, just don't see the point. Happily married, love my adult dc to death but each day is a struggle, so sad and tired and each day is so long. I am retired, reduced income. Alternatively it would help if each day could be about 6 hours long then a deep peaceful sleep the other 18.

Yes, totally! If only. The only hesitation would be my dog. My DP too but he is fairly self-reliant and would be fine after he got over it.