I just need to talk

[Strugglingalone]

I’m not coping, I can’t speak on the phone, I have no friends, I just need to talk to someone

Really struggling this evening. Reached out to the crisis team but they won’t help, no one will.

I’m so done with this, I have no fight left

I'm sorry to hear that. What's on your mind?

Hi OP. I get it. Its fucking sould destroying not to have your health and difficult to understand if you're one of the lucky ones. I have Crohns disease and I've had cancer, add in depression, anxiety, arthritis and it's just too much. I'm suffering side effects of cancer treatment a few years back which I know will mean a massive life change eventually and I'm devastated.. you just gotta keep fighting and talking. I think it's easier to talk to strangers, please talk and let us listen to you x

OP we're here

Do try one of those webchats I mentioned. My Black Dog or CALM - they're very good 🙂

My thoughts are drifting of ways to make everything stop

I have tried all the support, I’ve called (which is massive for me) and asked for support, there is just no support, I can’t fight this

I don’t know where to go from here

Go to A+E. Tell them what you've said here - or show them your posts on this thread if you don't feel able to speak.

The MH service wasn't properly funded before covid but now the demands are so much higher so many people are being left to fend for themselves its frightening. You've reached out and we've answered. Tell us more.

How are you doing?

Told crisis I can’t fight my thoughts anymore to be told there is no help they can offer.

I have no energy to move, to function, there is nothing

Can you call 111?

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website or email them on [email protected].

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Could you try and just observe your thoughts? I’m no expert but am prone to catastrophizing so if I have negative thought I just say, oh look that’s a negative thought. It distances it from me. And thoughts are like waves in the sea, they come and go.. notice if you’re reacting to them.. is your heart beating faster.. so maybe just try snd breathe through them, distract yourself, and just remind yourself, it’s a thought, not an action, just a thought.. hugs hope your ok..

I think you should feel proud of the fact you picked up the phone OP. I called 111 when I was struggling with anxiety and it hugely helped.

Hi OP, I'm off to bed now, I'll check back here in the morning, I hope you come back and talk to us.

Still struggling hugely, can’t get any support so just completely shut down, I just want to go to sleep and never wake up

I'm really sorry to hear that. I know what it's like to feel that way. Sending you hugs.

So sorry OP
Do you want to talk?

You are amazing - you've made it through the past 3 weeks when you never thought you could

How did the scan go?

@jackstini I know, but was told yesterday I’m likely to be discharged from all mh support

Still waiting on results of scan so really anxious as worried that means things are not ok

I have am just completely alone, can’t access anymore support, I don’t want to wake up tomorrow

So sorry to hear that

Hoping no news is better news on the scan. If there was something really obviously terrible they would likely have spotted it and told you by now

If the thought of losing your MH support is making you feel like you don't want to wake up, you definitely need to still seek help

Can you get to A&E or out of hours? Show them this thread if you can't speak

Have you tried texting Shout? 85258. They will send an auto reply but then a real person will text you back

@jackstini I was already at rock bottom when they told me that

I have been engaging in behaviours I haven’t done in the last 10 years with regards my medication, I have just gone hugely backwards recently

Tired speaking to diabetes clinic today to express how bad things are and how I’m not coping, they struggled to understand, I just can’t keep going like this

I’ve found shout really unhelpful, sorry

Don't apologise - if it's not right for you that's fine

Have you been taking your meds?

Make a very small steps plan:
Try and sleep
Congratulate yourself in the morning for getting through another night
Get in touch with a different part of the NHS. Use 999 if you feel you are at risk of harm

I am thinking of you, you are not alone

I may be away from thread for a bit but will check back in the morning x

Really not in a good place, can’t get anyone to understand how bad things are, just need to escape now

How are you this morning?

Do you want to explain a bit about your life in case anyone can give practical help?

Not sure who you have around you, what help/meds you've had so far. What your worst issues are

You absolutely don't have to say, but if you want to unload it all you can do it here. Or write it down in a letter to yourself or no one

@Strugglingalone - still thinking of you