Please help me

[Iamincrisis]

I wrote that I was in crisis the other day. I am now feeling heavily suicidal and am thinking about ending my life. I have a one year old. I don’t know what to do. Please help

Bloody fantastic for doing that.Could you make a quick note of what's going on to help the convo

I’m not surprised you’re feeling the way you are with the utter shitheads around you. There’s loads of help out there op, don’t let anyone put you off asking for it.

I hope the clinic get back to you today. Your mum obviously can't deal with anything to do with mental health so is totally dismissing how you feel. It's nothing to feel ashamed about . I'd say there are more people who have got or had some issues with their mental health at some time then people who haven't. Keep going iamin. Things won't always be like this .

I resist talking about myself but briefly I very much wanted a baby and thought I'd be quite good at it.
It all went wrong,no help from anybody.Useless mother.
Ridiculous thinking.
Got the help,moved on.
It is NOT your fault in any way.

You have done so well since you first posted! Seriously, I know how hard it can be to reach out at that point. But not only did you come here, but you made two really important phone calls which will hopefully lead to services that can help you out from the bottom of this deep hole.

Well done, and please hang in there.

You have wisely taken the right steps - just well done - it is not easy to do I know.

Social Services do not want to take your child away - their role is to support you and your family through this crisis.

I hope very much that you have heard back from the mental health team.

Please don't worry about social services being involved. They don't punish people for needing help. They'll put a support plan in place and get you the help you need. They'll ensure your child has what they need while you are getting better. It doesn't mean the will take them away.

You need to stop listening to people who tell you that you are fine or telling you something bad will happen if you seek help. You know you are not fine, you know you need help. Do this for your child. Your child needs you, of course they will know if you've gone. Your their mummy! You are everything to them.

I hope the mental health clinic called you back?

Just wanted to offer a handhold, we haven't forgotten you.

The fact that your asking for help, shows that you are a great mum x

Please hang in there, we are all here for you x

You're doing amazingly OP, well done for the steps you've taken so far- shows what an amazing mum you are too.

Well done for reaching out! People will help you love, so trust them and go with it.
I don’t think the people closest to you are doing much good as sad as that is.
I do hope you are feeling a little better tonight

I hope tonight is a bit better, OP. Don’t be afraid to post here or to ring a helpline if you need it. Thinking of you!

@Iamincrisis

I tried to talk to my mum this morning. I told her I was feeling like I was in crisis. She told me ‘you’re fine’ and ‘there’s nothing I can do about it’.

She's the wrong person to talk to. You need to be talking to supportive people not people who are dismissive of you. How dare she tell you how you feel! If you feel in crisis then that's how you feel. She's not you, she doesn't know how you feel, she doesn't get to choose how you feel.

When you're ill it drains your energy, don't waste the little energy you do have on trying to convince people who don't believe you that you're ill. You know you're ill, that's all that matters. Talk to supportive people like your GP, Women's Aid, the person you phoned last night.

TBH I think anybody in your circumstances would feel ill. It's a basic necessities of life to have enough money to pay the bills and eat, and to have emotional support from somewhere whenever things feel tough. Anyone lacking those things isn't going to feel great.

@AmberIsACertainty is right, don't confide in your mum because she's a big factor in your distress. It might be difficult to accept but you need to learn what support looks and feels like, listen to those people, and distance yourself from those who are unkind and/or abusive (your mum and mil)
It might seem like fantasy land now but trust me you can learn this, you can do this and you will be a hundred times happier once you are doing it.

How are you today?

How are you doing op?

Hope you are OK op

Hi, how are you op x