Health Anxiety - Part 5

[AJ297]

Sorry if someone else was going to do this, I just didn't want to lose you all 😂

@MrsWhites
@argueifnecessary
@tmh88
@Skyliner001
@TheSilentStars
@hildagardecrowe
@BigGreen
@goolies
@iamsodonewith2020
@KAP232
@polkadotpixie

Sorry if I missed anyone!

[MrsWhites]

@StooriMelon thanks for the reassurance on periods. Interested to hear what has helped you. I’m having good days and bad days at the moment, some days health things worry me sick and then other days I can be more rational about the same things.

@tmh88 I agree with what others have said, I don’t think you’d feel any lumps in the abdomen as a pea sized lump either, probably a lump piece of fatty tissue or something.

@HildegardeCrowe I have a haircut booked for this week and I absolutely can’t wait! I also need to buy more knickers, especially nice fancy ones - mine have all gone too small with my lockdown weight! I’ve been in total denial about how much weight I have put on but I’ve decided I really need to do something about it now so diet starts today!

[Dollsandfoo]

I always feel much worse when I don't sleep well. Social media and the news definitely triggers me I try my best to avoid as much as I can but obviously can't avoid everything and there just seems to be so much sadness lately. X

[EXA1912]

Hope everyone is well. Had my scan. 5 weeks pregnant. I tried to explain something didn’t feel right and I’m struggling with my bowels but they didn’t listen to me, just said I’m booked in with a consultant in a couple of weeks to discuss as I’m high risk and already having issues 😔 x

[tmh88]

@EXA1912 hope you are doing ok! Is there anything you can take at the minute to help with your anxiety that your GP may be able to give you? So sorry your struggling so much it sounds really hard x

@argueifnecessary yes I’m the same! I start clock watching which makes it worse!

@MrsWhites your right yes! I’m feeling much more positive today about it! How are you?

@Dollsandfoo I don’t watch the news/medical programmes I even change channel when it’s British heart foundation/cancer research etc! I see that many of these adverts I always feel like they’re a sign I also deleted all social media which massively helps!

[Iamsodonewith2020]

Really struggling today after a few good days. Woke up with pain in specific point in my head that spread to my shoulder. Has got worse all day and have also noticed my right side is very stiff/ uncoordinated/weak. My hands particularly. Struggled to use the touch screen in the supermarket today which has set me off even more. I had a phone triage with CBT consultant on thursday which didn’t help as much as I hoped. It was a first appointment so maybe I was expect8ng too much but I omitted a couple of things in my history which I am really angry about and I think this has triggered downward spiral.

[Iamsodonewith2020]

Therapist not consultant!!!

[Dollsandfoo]

@tmh88 I think I need to do the same and completely delete all social media. I do try not to go on it to much but think I need to get rid of it completely . Definitely no good for me x

[EXA1912]

@tmh88 thanks I feel so helpless. My womb just feels too big and is falling on my bowel but because it’s within normal limits no one is listening 😢 I think I have issues with my ligaments inside, I really hope the consultant can see it when I see her, I honestly feel like I’m going to die and no one is listening to me. GP prescribed me diazepam for over the weekend but I know she won’t for much longer cz I’m pregnant. I feel like I’m waiting to die I really do, I’m so anxious 😢 x

[tmh88]

@Dollsandfoo I struggled at first but after a while you don’t miss it all! I even went as far as not just deactivating but deleting so I couldn’t reactivate it! 😂

@EXA1912 your GP when you explain how you are feeling may be able to prescribe something safe to take during pregnancy, is there anything you really enjoy you could try doing to keep your mind busy while you wait? I’ve recently got into reading and do like getting lost in a book now, I sometimes also binge watch things on YouTube like Jeremy Kyle... that really takes my mind off things that feeling is horrible and I really do hope you’ll soon start to lose the anxious feeling I think hormones are rife in early pregnancy too which doesn’t help being anxious, every time you feel worried or like you are going to Google something come on here instead and we can all help you! Could you do something tonight like treat yourself to a takeaway pudding or something if you have one near or just a takeaway and have a proper relax (easier said than done, I know ) x

[EXA1912]

Thanks @tmh88 I think I’m finding it hard because I’m already having Gynae issues and was trying to work through them and now this has happened and I feel like I can’t do this on top. I’m really struggling with passing wind and I feel like I’m sat waiting for it to happen all the time and I feel like the more pregnant I get the worse I’m going to feel. I can only think of all the bad things that are going to happen. I do agree a good tv programme helps me sometimes I just think I’m so highly anxious atm that nothing can take my mind off it. I’m not as bad in the day as I am at night tho. I keep waking in the night sweating and panicking. I don’t know how I’m going to do this. I have eaten tonight but I don’t eat anything all day ever, just eat the odd thing in an evening. I’m going to ask my GP for an anti anxiety that increases appetite when she next calls xx

[tmh88]

@EXA1912 you could try some sparkling water etc for the wind, yeah it’s hard sometimes isn’t it when the anxiety really consumes you! I understand what you mean about eating even though I get it the opposite way and over eat 😂 I’m sure with the right team around you that you have now and support on here and friends/family you are going to be just fine and have another healthy baby ❤️ xx

[EXA1912]

@tmh88 thanks I’m so glad I’ve found this group as I don’t feel strange about saying all these things. I keep telling my partner that this isn’t going to end well, I’ve booked to get life insurance this weekend because I’m panicking about them being left with nothing when I die. I really do think if I continue I’ll die and if I don’t I’ll die too, they just don’t seem to be picking up on what’s wrong with me and it’s defo something for me to be struggling with wind and my bowels x

[tmh88]

@EXA1912 when I’m really anxious I struggle with my bowels I get trapped wind/nervous stomach etc! It’s a horrible, horrible fear and one we’ve all related to on previous threads and it is all consuming! Wish I had a magic wand for us all xx

[EXA1912]

Do you think it’s just that? I honestly think it’s my womb causing an obstruction, I wake it the night and my stomach is rumbling it’s like it can’t get past a certain point. I work in healthcare and it’s got to a point I’d actually ask one of the consultants to check my bum 😩 x

[tmh88]

@EXA1912 it could well be, especially as you aren’t eating much at the minute honestly I really think there is no limits to the physical symptoms anxiety brings! If you have a kindle order a book on it called “help me I’m a hypochondriac - from headache to hypochondria” honestly it’s helpful just to realise other people that have been cured/gone through it and on the back few pages it lists all the physical symptoms of anxiety. Bless you I think you’ll be ok to wait until your appointment but if you feel your peace of mind is suffering phone and request to be seen sooner x x

[EXA1912]

It may be partly to blame, when she showed me the scan of my womb today I was saying omg it’s massive I knew there was something wrong, the woman must have thought I was a complete nutter. I was asking her what everything was on the scan, I barely even mentioned the baby which obvs is most other people’s concern. And now I’ve come home all I can think about is all the other things I should of asked too 🤦🏼‍♀️ Xx

[EXA1912]

I think I can wait till my appointment, if things get bad I’ll go in but I’ve managed like this for a while now so I think I can until my appointment. Speaking to the GP on Tuesday, I’m sure she’ll say she doesn’t need to check my womb or bum tho😂 do need to write a list of things to ask her though as they’re all spinning round in my head x

[tmh88]

@EXA1912 I also find when I write down how I’m feeling it gets it all out of my head! I do it on my notes on my phone so I can delete it and nobody thinks I’m a crazy person if they find them 😂 x

[Dollsandfoo]

Just out of interest if you don't mine me asking did most of you get health anxiety once you had kids? I think had anxiety a little all my life but the health anxiety definitely came once I had my kids and the thought of leaving them or something happing to them is what really kicks it off. My sister is also the same and hers came once she had kids. So just wondering really if that is what triggers alot of us xxx

[HildegardeCrowe]

Morning all, have been awake since 5.30am and that’s when my anxiety’s the worst (early morning). Do others experience the same? Have a call with the GP this morning re: medication etc and decided it would be a good idea to check my boobs just in case I found any lumps/skin changes. It made me feel sick but thankfully all clear. Yes @Dollsandfoo, I think that’s when my anxiety started, a few months after the birth of my daughter but the HA really kicked in with my job in healthcare.

I keep notes on my phone too @tmh88 and bits and pieces of health-related stuff.

[argueifnecessary]

@Dollsandfoo My best time was when I was pregnant with my firsts and until she was about a year old. After that the anxiety started slowly creeping back. It was full on with my second pregnancy though. I was told my baby was too small and that strongly kicked it off

[onlyreadingneverposting8]

Well I'm back! After a few reasonably quiet weeks my period showed up early and I had some bleeding from my bottom on Friday - sorry for the tmi but I could see where it can from so most likely piles, which I have but anyway now convinced I've got anal cancer 😖 so going to have to speak to the GP and get it checked. What fears me most is them saying I need further checks.

[EXA1912]

My health anxiety definitely worsened with each pregnancy and the more children I had for sure and my mum dying. I feel this big hole in my life that can’t be filled and worry about that for the kids xx

[EXA1912]

And yes my anxiety is definitely worst first thing in the morning or at night. I wake in the night early hours in a blind panic and can’t go back to sleep. I spend a lot of time pacing about in the day too x

[EXA1912]

How is everyone this morning?