Health Anxiety - Part 5

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Sorry if someone else was going to do this, I just didn't want to lose you all 😂

@MrsWhites
@argueifnecessary
@tmh88
@Skyliner001
@TheSilentStars
@hildagardecrowe
@BigGreen
@goolies
@iamsodonewith2020
@KAP232
@polkadotpixie

Sorry if I missed anyone!

Please can I join for a handhold...I always read this thread and can relate so much.

I have severe health anxiety with a massive flare up in January, when I started having palpitations and shortness of breath - I was convinced I was dying. Gp done chest X-ray, bloods and everything normal except for abnormal ecg I now have an mri heart scan tomorrow and I am so scared! I know after having this scan the wait for results will set me off again! Every time a letter comes through the post and I see the nhs stamp I go in to panic mode and have a full panic attack. I've tried medication and it makes me worse.

I honestly lie in bed crying because I think I have something seriously wrong with myself. I am convinced I am going to die young and leave dc - I even cry when just sat thinking about it. If I have diarrhoea I think I have bowel canxer, if I cough it's my lungs. I so wish I could be normal and not think like this.

to everyone else, it's so hard to explain to anyone who doesn't suffer and it makes me resent DH as he doesn't understand it.

@tmh88 yer one of my older sisters suffers aswell and my dad although I am definitely the worst with it. I just hope my poor kids don't.
@RainOnMe3 welcome. We all know exactly how your feeling. It really is hard . The amount of physical symptoms I have had which have been caused just actually by my anxiety is unreal sending lots of love x

For some stupid reason I started poking around my ribs this morning and notice one feels a bit runny differs to the rest smaller. The last on I can feel. Is this normal. Why oh why do I do this to myself x

My ribs are all lumpy/bumpy especially the ones below my breast! @Dollsandfoo xx

Got myself in such a state I left work and drove to my mums and sobbed. She said its just my ribs and my other half says the same. He said its just the last rib and its smaller than the other. I have lost a bit of weight so maybe its because I can feel it more. I did ring the doctor and was waiting for then to call me back but think ill ring and cancel it because I have calmed myself down a bit now x

@Dollsandfoo
Have a look at some skeleton pictures. The ribs get smaller and the last ones are more cartilage than the others. No reason to worry!

Thank you.i think am at that stage with me meds were there making things a bit worse before things get better. Doctor said it can do that xx

Can I join. I also suffer with health anxiety it’s getting me down so much!

My story so far, always suffered mildly but it started off in October with high liver enzymes and I convinced myself I ha cancer of the liver, I had an ultrasound and found bile duct slightly enlarged so I’m still thinking I have bile duct cancer. I had a ct scan and showed nothing but says I have mild fatty liver and swollen and fluid filled Fallopian tube, which I now convinced I have Fallopian tube cancer!

On top of that cos I got
Myself so worked up like to point I thought I may have a break down; I had awful eye head ache over Christmas and my eye muscle really hurt to move few days later and then I got double vision, convinced myself brain tumour, eyes checked out fine and it went away and doctors did t think anything more of it just stress related and then back of my neck the same side as my eye issue has been aching, back of head been aching every so often and shoulder pain the same side. I’ve been told by chiropractor it’s my posture as I’ve been hunched over my phone a lot googling. I have now developed twitch sensation On the back of my head same side as all my issues so now again I’m like I must have a brain tumour!

I also keep getting worked up that my son has leukaemia 😩

@Loobylou1987 hi welcome. Sorry your suffering aswell. It really is awful. They amount of symptoms our anxiety can give us is unreal.

Hope
Everyone isn't feeling to bad. I have had a crap day today haven't felt this bad for a while am hoping its just the meds kicking in and tomorrow will be better. Hope you all enjoy the long weekend x

@Dollsandfoo
I'll keep my fingers crossed that your meds start working soon. Oh what I'd do to also try some but there are no psychiatrists appointments available so I cannot.
I've had a bad day. My DD5 went for a bike ride with the neighbours yesterday and I had very very high anxiety and was thinking all sorts of thoughts about her being in an accident etc and that might have triggered the health thoughts today.
I need to get an appointment for the things on my scalp. They're like little flesh coloured domes and of course when I google it comes back with cancer.
Welcome @Loobylou1987 we all have some health problems. I have a big cyst between my uterus and ovary and problems with my nervous system. But the second part you describe, the neck, twitching, eye pain...these are the kinds of symptoms that most of us seem to get and are most likely triggered by stress and anxiety.

My people!! I've missed you. Need to catch up but re: lumpy ribs mine are the same, top right inner bit!

Can I jump In here? 🙂

Currently convinced I've got MS as I keep getting a dead arm for no apparent reason.

I wish I didn't think this way.

In the past year I've had ovarian cancer, bladder cancer,breast cancer & PCOS - all investigated and squashed.

This started when my dad died, I had every test possible for heart conditions, as he passed of a heart attack. I got a hold of it and since having my daughter it's flooded back.

Has anyone found something to help?

Sertraline have helped kill the obsessive thoughts! And this group is massively helpful to know I am not alone. Trying to except that sometimes it isn't something wrong with me physically, but is something more to do with my mind. Whilst also remaining vigilant about my health! I have also been through the MS spiral, most people on this group will have done. My favourite obsession is breast cancer, but anything I logical as well! I had lymphoma 20 years ago, so tend to be fairly sensible about lymph-node's, but I know that that is a pick up session for people as well! I'm vastly improved over the last four weeks. Keeping busy helps me

And welcome, you are among friends here!

Hi everyone new!

@Skyliner001 so happy to hear from you!! Glad you are doing so well made my week to hear that!

I’ve been ok today but feel a bit anxious tonight as I watched a tiktok video about thyroid cancer.. trying to stay logical! I don’t have any of the symptoms although I have been swallowing in a mirror for a good 20 minutes to see if I could see my thyroid like she could when she had cancer and I can’t tell because tbh it all moves 😂 hope everyone else is doing ok!!

I've been there @tmh88 Had to pull over in the car and do a check once! 😳

Lovely to be back 💚

Hope everyone is doing okay.

I have so many physical symptoms as a result of my anxiety but my new one is a tightness around my lungs/ribs. Does anyone else have this?

My family are amazing my partner is fab but he just doesn't get it. He is one of life's lucky people who worries about nothing takes everything as it is and just deals with it at the time. My mum is also pretty much the same. While they are amazing with me I know I drive them mad. I know my partner gets fed up of me constantly asking him to feel things or look at stuff on me. They just don't get that I can't help it. I don't want to feel like this. Its so draining I actually think my health anxiety is now leading me to become a little depressed. Its getting me down so much at the moment. I know all the right things to do I have had theapy before I and talk to my family and gp and I known i will get through it because I have before but its all just so hard 😪

@tmh88 how strange we both moved on to the same thing! 😂 it was only the other day you were reassuring me about my thyroid! Mine was kicked off by Demi Jones having the op to check for it. She did videos of hers and you could very clearly see a lump moving, it looked very obvious if that helps.

@Goolies Do you think your burning vulva could be vulvodynia? I've self diagnosed myself with this as I have the burning too, it's harmless but very unpleasant

I missed the new thread starting so I've only just found you all again! I'm not doing well at the moment, despite the Sertraline 😩

Since I found out my ovarian cyst was endometriosis rather than cancer, I've moved onto new worries and it's getting me down so badly

I had a flexi sigmoidoscopy for rectal bleeding. It was just piles but they found some polyps which they removed and biopsied. They came back benign but the kind that can turn cancerous over many years so now I have to have another one in a year to check for any more. It's exhausting feeling like I'm living on borrowed time all the time

I paid for a private kidney ultrasound as I was concerned I had kidney cancer. It was clear so now I'm back to bladder cancer as I get constant bladder burning and microscopic blood in my urine. My doctor says it's incredibly rare in someone my age and thinks it's more likely to be interstitial cystitis but I'm in a spiral again

Hey @polkadotpixie, I have been reading up on vulvadynia and it does sound just like what I have. However with health anxiety it’s always about the what if... my logic just goes out the window. Do you do anything about the burning? Is it the entire vulva or just parts of it.

You should just like me, just over a month ago I was posting stressed out about my boobs and almost had a nervous breakdown waiting for my mammogram results.

A short time before that it was rib pain and I went for a chest x Ray convinced of bad news. It’s so exhausting isn’t it, i just can’t break the cycle, then I think if I don’t get this checked thus will be the one that gets me.

Morning everyone, hope everyone is doing well. I’ve been rubbish posting recently. Had a rubbish month with my anxiety and I’ve been burying my head in the sand rather than posting on here and trying to deal with it 😢

Welcome to all the new people!

@Skyliner001 lovely to see you back on here! Hope you are well! x

@polkadotpixie I had an op years ago for frequent utis/cystitis! Let me know if you want any more information on what I had done to me it sounds like cystitis x

@Goolies I’m really struggling to break the cycle also! It’s draining x

@MrsWhites I’m the same today woken up with really bad anxiety, chest pain and body aches but I’ve had a bad cold past few days so hoping it’s that but I’m struggling to be rational now my colds gone but think I’ve pulled my muscles from struggling to breathe/constant sneezing x

@EXA1912 @HildegardeCrowe how are you both?xx

Morning everyone, sorry I haven’t been around. I can see we’re all struggling and my latest is lip cancer because I’ve got something on my lip which I thought was a cold sore but isn’t. Googled myself silly but have routine dental check up on Thursday so will mention it then.

We all seem to recognise that we must try and break the cycle because the moment we get over one thing, something else takes its place. Whilst remaining vigilant about our health! It’s really hard. Wishing you all a peaceful bank holiday.

@HildegardeCrowe I have a spot type bit on my inner lip which I bite regularly and went down that spiral so I feel your pain! I'm sure it's nothing but mention it to the dentist for sure 😊

@polkadotpixie Glad you found us! Sorry to hear you're struggling. I started sertrine in early December and actually really feeling the benefits now and for about the last two months xx

@MrsWhites Missed you!! I'm okay, been having a really good few weeks. Sorry to hear you've been struggling? X