Did you ever want to die

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I don't have any plans for implenting a finish but my goodness, everything is so overwhelming.

I work hard but I can't afford rent and I live at home. My work can be intense sometimes. Then I go home to an overly demanding and domineering mother to literally have more shit dumped on my back.

This week has been particularly hard. I am feeling poorly but it's not covid sickness and I don't ha e covid symptoms but I still need to keep on going even though I am finding it hard to sleep at night.

I also have my period and last yesr I had to change from pads to nappies in case I don't get a chance to get to a toilet in the middle of a working day. A nappy would provide more period protection. Basically there are times when I wear the nappy for up to 12/13 hours. Then other times I do get a chance to get to the toilet and change. I wear the nappies in case I don't get a chance to get to a toilet and there have been days like that.

Yesterday was a particularly bad day. The night before I slept like shit. I continued with work and had a long day. I went home where my mother was demanding my time and energy to help her. Yesterday was also a day where I didn't get a chance to change my period soaked nappy. I put a stop to my mother's demands quickly and I told her that I am not well and I went to bed but she's not finished with me and she wants me to help her tonight. I told her I am free on Saturday and I can help her then but that's not good enough for her. She wants new shoes again now and tonight. My mother knew I wasn't feeling well the night before. She's not able to comprehend what a poor night's sleep is like followed by a long work day on top of it.

Everything is just so shit. Feeling sick and not sleeping properly, work being long, mother being demanding - everything. It appears as if I need to pay rent monies to the world just to grab a few minutes to look after myself.

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Can I ask how old you are and if it is possible for you to live in a shared house?
Maybe getting away from your mum will be a step in the right

Direction

What is your job? You are legally entitled to a break and should not have to be in the position of wearing a nappy for 12-13 hours.

Is your mum able to function normally, as in is she ok mental health wise?

And your.mental health?

Sorry for the questions but it helps to get some clarity on how to help.

That isn't even legal, OP, what job are you in? 12 hours without a break isn't right.

To answer your question, yes and I plan to. The only reason I haven't already is because of my therapist who is going through a difficult time himself but still supporting me and I just can't do it to him.

What job do you do?

That's awful. Please raise it with HR.
Is there any way for you to move out?