I don't have any plans for implenting a finish but my goodness, everything is so overwhelming.
I work hard but I can't afford rent and I live at home. My work can be intense sometimes. Then I go home to an overly demanding and domineering mother to literally have more shit dumped on my back.
This week has been particularly hard. I am feeling poorly but it's not covid sickness and I don't ha e covid symptoms but I still need to keep on going even though I am finding it hard to sleep at night.
I also have my period and last yesr I had to change from pads to nappies in case I don't get a chance to get to a toilet in the middle of a working day. A nappy would provide more period protection. Basically there are times when I wear the nappy for up to 12/13 hours. Then other times I do get a chance to get to the toilet and change. I wear the nappies in case I don't get a chance to get to a toilet and there have been days like that.
Yesterday was a particularly bad day. The night before I slept like shit. I continued with work and had a long day. I went home where my mother was demanding my time and energy to help her. Yesterday was also a day where I didn't get a chance to change my period soaked nappy. I put a stop to my mother's demands quickly and I told her that I am not well and I went to bed but she's not finished with me and she wants me to help her tonight. I told her I am free on Saturday and I can help her then but that's not good enough for her. She wants new shoes again now and tonight. My mother knew I wasn't feeling well the night before. She's not able to comprehend what a poor night's sleep is like followed by a long work day on top of it.
Everything is just so shit. Feeling sick and not sleeping properly, work being long, mother being demanding - everything. It appears as if I need to pay rent monies to the world just to grab a few minutes to look after myself.