Health Anxiety - Part 4

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I hope no-one minds me starting a follow up thread. I know some people were waiting for me to update so I thought I would but happy to ask MNHQ to delete if one of the long term posters wanted to start it 😊

Welcome@CocoSims your find loads of supportive people here, we are all very much in the same boat! I join you with severe breast anxiety, and also tend to worry about anything cervical or gynaecological! But I have fleeting movements across to other things as well.Just saying hello anyway, your post really resonates

Apologies for not remembering who suggested this, but the technique of thinking about things I would rather be doing other than checking, has really worked for me over the last 24 hours. Trying to stop myself from digging under my armpits because there was a bit of muscle there and for some reason it's upsetting me. But I've told myself I would rather do something else. So thank you for that!

@MrsWhites yes every time! the next morning over night I’m heavier it’s definitely your period! Sorry for the major TMI but I’m waiting to get the coil in so using condoms and sometimes there is blood on it when I’m like last day of period/very light!

@CocoSims welcome! We are all in this together, like you I’ve moved from several different cancers 😂 I could write a book honestly!

It was me @Skyliner001 I’ve been using that today and so far I haven’t poked that rib which has most likely got a cartridge/muscle lump! 😂 honestly it’s a rib with a bit of muscle or something but my brain is so very much THAT IS A LUMP because the rib sticks out more 😫

Nearly at page 40 I think we should try get the new thread on this one this time before we get too it, whoever wants to make it 🥰

So glad I have you all x

I wonder if it would help if the system in the UK was like it is here in Germany that all women go the the OBGYN twice a year and have a thorough check-up with an ultrasound and a breast exam. Then maybe we/you could be thinking that the check-up is never far and you could bring all your worries up every time you go.

Sometimes I think it would be so so much better if a yearly general check-up was more of a thing. Like all sorts of blood tests - general, adrenal, hormonal and maybe even an MRI, and as you get older maybe also heart echo etc.
It would probably save millions because lots of conditions would be detected early and would be way more treatable.

On a different note, I went to the shop earlier with my girls and I think I got really anxious, I wonder if I have developed other types of anxiety disorders too or maybe a bit of depression with it. I feel like I don't want to sort anything out. I'm supposed to be doing some things for my DD2's daycare and supposed to call the pediatrician and make an appointment but I just can't make myself do it.
I did wake up with bad anxiety though like I have been for the last month or so

Thank you @Skyliner001 and @tmh88, it’s happened before but only ever at the end of a period so I know logically it’s just that but you know what it’s like with the what ifs! Hope you are both doing ok!

@argueifnecessary that’s interesting, it probably would help if it was a routine screening that everyone would get used to going along to. Wouldn’t seem like such a big deal then!

Thanks everyone, really lovely to have found this thread and to know I’m not the only one constantly poking and prodding things! ❤️

Am I unusual in that I don’t prod and poke as so gripped with anxiety that I am scared I will find something? I suffer lots of physical symptoms that cause me to google instead eg headache, numbness, pins and needles, aching limbs, breast pain, pelvic pain etc.

@Iamsodonewith2020
I think it's really the same thing. You prod yourself or you Google stuff and through that make yourself more anxious. I do both but maybe more googling and less prodding because I know what you mean by being too scared to find something or that you know already that something is there and then avoid it like hell.

Woken up with instant anxiety 😟 stressing over the fact my skull doesn’t feel smooth 😂 I have a bone type lump on the top of my head on the right, near the centre, I did bump around that area in 2018 and it did bleed I’m just wondering if something like that can leave a lump?! Does anyone know what this could be or could it literally just be my skull that’s always been like this I’ve been Googling since 6:30 and nicely drained myself for the day... hope everyone’s ok x

Are mornings the worst for everyone? Am really finding the mornings so hard. Waking every day feeling sick and have a off tummy. I know it is my anxiety because its happened before just wish I could control it. Its so draining to feel like this I want to hide in bed but with 2 little ones and a full time job its not happening. Hope you all have a ok day x

@Dollsandfoo I find mornings harder, particularly at weekends or where I have no particular plans for the day. I get distracted as the day goes on so find my anxiety easier to deal with by the afternoon I think. Unless I’m in a particular cycle and then it takes over my whole day!

Mornings are the worst. I wake up with very strong anxiety every morning. I do think I have POTs though so mine could be adrenaline dumps. (TMI) I also have to run to the toilet first thing.
@tmh88 i think our skulls are quite lumpy and an old injury could definitely have some cartilage growth etc

This thread is so fast moving! @tmh88 thank you, I did have a good first day back at work and everyone is very supportive (work in medical practice). I’d contacted the GP last week because I’m always fretting about being covered in bruises and was due a call from them this pm to discuss but I’ve cancelled it and am proud of myself. I’ve had blood tests not long ago which were fine and been reassured but anxiety about this went through the roof recently. Somehow today I’ve managed to tell myself I just bruise a lot and easily and to let go of the fear. Somehow it’s working....

Thinking of you all and your various concerns. I’m convinced that with me there’s something underlying all this and am hoping to see a psychotherapist privately soon. The wait on the NHS is so long. Does anyone else put their HA down to something deeper?

Hello everyone, just regarding Morning anxiety, mornings are definitely worse for me. Although I can wake up feeling quite positive, I will immediately scan my body and my mind to see what I need to worry about. Obviously I don't always have a physical sensation, so then I will look in my mind for what I am worried about that day. And then that's when the urge to check comes upon me. It's a complete nightmare! I do tend to get better during the day, and his other previous posters have said being busy is a good thing. Once I'm busy I find it easier to just get on. Sending you all love anyway X

@Skyliner001, what you describe is me down to a T. I even have dreams about there being something wrong and wake convinced I have whatever it is and am relieved to come back to reality.

How many people on here work in the nhs/healthcare? I feel like there's a trend 😂 I do 🙋🏼‍♀️

I don’t work in healthcare but have a child with a potentially life threatening lifelong medical condition and I think that combined with my mum having cancer 6 years ago is what has tipped my mild anxiety into full blown all consuming health anxiety.

I also don't work in a medical field but have been fascinated with medicine ever since I was a child. I think it is a mixture of knowing quite a lot but not knowing enough that has tipped me.

I had a certain event happen in my life that started it badly although I remember having worries about my health as a 10 year old.

Hello lovelies. I've been awol because I was doing fine but have now gone into a total spiral of anxiety. Colon this time. I'm poking and prodding and convinced I can feel about 4 lumps of varying sizes and shapes. Tube shaped ones, round ones. Big ones, little ones. All to the right of my belly button and out towards the hip bone.
I try to tell myself it's my actual intestine, and erm poo, but it feels different on the other side. Then I tell myself that's because I'm right handed so prod more deeply and efficiently on the right than the left.
Gah. I have no intestine symptoms at all but keep reading threads full of "he was fine then he was DEAD" and it makes me want to curl up and cry.
Oh and my lower legs are buzzing and tingling so I'm back on brain tumours and MS as well

Thanks for being here.

Oh bless you @TheSilentStars Don't forget we aren't symmetrical and the organs in the abdo aren't identical on both sides. Sorry you are struggling

Hi ladies sorry I’ve disappeared recently!! After getting reassurance about my breasts I seem to have developed a burning sensation down there, I’ve had it before about a year ago, it lasted a few months then went away, I had a Pap test at the time as well as STD tests which were all clear. I think it’s vulvodynia, does anyone have experience of this?

A big welcome to the newbies here too! Sorry you guys are suffering but so glad you’ve found this safe supportive place.

@MrsWhites yes sex either just before or after can trigger bleeding for me so those days are a no go for me!!

Hope everyone else is doing ok need to go back and catch up on the thread!

@AJ297

How many people on here work in the nhs/healthcare? I feel like there's a trend 😂 I do 🙋🏼‍♀️

I do! I'm a pharmacy tech in a pharmacy! Doesn't help seeing lots of different conditions that you can convince yourself you have 😩

@TheSilentStars

Hello lovelies. I've been awol because I was doing fine but have now gone into a total spiral of anxiety. Colon this time. I'm poking and prodding and convinced I can feel about 4 lumps of varying sizes and shapes. Tube shaped ones, round ones. Big ones, little ones. All to the right of my belly button and out towards the hip bone. I try to tell myself it's my actual intestine, and erm poo, but it feels different on the other side. Then I tell myself that's because I'm right handed so prod more deeply and efficiently on the right than the left. Gah. I have no intestine symptoms at all but keep reading threads full of "he was fine then he was DEAD" and it makes me want to curl up and cry. Oh and my lower legs are buzzing and tingling so I'm back on brain tumours and MS as well

Thanks for being here.

Someone once post a message on her about how are bodies aren't twins and that they are sisters, so basically saying they aren't the same either side but they are alike. This really helped me x