Hello, I don't know what I'm doing so please excuse me..
I was on ESA for a few years because my mental health is very poor and then went to an assessment with a lady who asked me questions about my physical health An stared at my new shoes the entire time. I knew she would get me cut off because of the questions she was asking.
I have had no money for two years because dealing with them made me suicidal and I couldn't cope with talking to any of them again. They turned me down when I called immediately after decision and I tried to take my life. When I came around to reading the report I realised she'd lied and told them the opposite of what id said to her. Example : can you shop? "No I can't I have panic attacks in shops especially super markets " and she wrote "can do a weekly food shop".
So my question is, after a few years and a rejected lengthy letter describing why I can't cope and need it reinstated in July. They sent a letter today (October) saying we reject this. That was it.
Where can I get help with this? I feel completely lost and suicidal over it.
Thank you