Overturning ESA decision after 2 years

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Hello, I don't know what I'm doing so please excuse me..
I was on ESA for a few years because my mental health is very poor and then went to an assessment with a lady who asked me questions about my physical health An stared at my new shoes the entire time. I knew she would get me cut off because of the questions she was asking.
I have had no money for two years because dealing with them made me suicidal and I couldn't cope with talking to any of them again. They turned me down when I called immediately after decision and I tried to take my life. When I came around to reading the report I realised she'd lied and told them the opposite of what id said to her. Example : can you shop? "No I can't I have panic attacks in shops especially super markets " and she wrote "can do a weekly food shop".
So my question is, after a few years and a rejected lengthy letter describing why I can't cope and need it reinstated in July. They sent a letter today (October) saying we reject this. That was it.
Where can I get help with this? I feel completely lost and suicidal over it.
Thank you

Have you spoken to Citizens Advice or your Local Welfare Rights Service for support and advice? I would book a GP appointment for a mental health review especially with you stating this this is making you feel suicidal. Samaritans can also be contacted on telephone: 116 123 if you need to talk to someone out of hours about the way this is making you feel.

I would start with Citizen’s Advice.

I think the rules now are really really strict and especially with things like mental health.

Have you looked into claiming universal credit? They can signpost you to lots of support that will help you get well again so that you are able to work at some point. You just need to be honest and and up front with them about how your mental health is affecting you. If you get a fit note from the GP then they can start the Work Capability assessment process too. Ideally though, it might work out better for your mental health if you feel able to start making little steps towards getting yourself ready to look for work. The routine and having a plan can really help.

They won’t reinstate it after a long time, but you can reapply, although it would be for new style ESA now.

Try and get some help with the form, either from CAB or a charity or even the Benefits & Work website.

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.
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