Hey all, firstly let me introduce myself. I'm 90sbabyy , 28 from North West. I have two gorgeous children 11 & almost 10!
After a turbulent life and events in recent years I decided to completely change myself as I was always finding myself in destructive behaviour and situations.
Not long after I was told I very likely have BPD. i already had researched this but it was a relief to hear there was a reason for my actions. For so long I had wondered why I was so outgoing yet have always struggled to maintain friendships due to my irratic behaviour. I have made lots of friends but only maybe 2/3 are able to truly understand me and accept me. Most others probably class me as "psycho".
I am looking for anyone to chat to who can relate, or offer the best websites to access for support?
I have worked so hard on myself and I have improved massively, but I do still have the lcrises"moments of over reaction. I have just enrolled on a new course and I am worried I will do what I always do, which is to let something small going wrong prevent me from carrying on.
I have been to the gp, was on the cbt waiting list for 8 months but I didn't feel it helped so stopped sessions.. I find there is next to no support for this condition on a long term basis. I was working full time on a good wage and now I feel like unless I get long term sipport I'll never get back to full time work and sustain it.
Thanks if you got this far