New Member :) BPD

[90sbabyx]

Hey all, firstly let me introduce myself. I'm 90sbabyy , 28 from North West. I have two gorgeous children 11 & almost 10!
After a turbulent life and events in recent years I decided to completely change myself as I was always finding myself in destructive behaviour and situations.
Not long after I was told I very likely have BPD. i already had researched this but it was a relief to hear there was a reason for my actions. For so long I had wondered why I was so outgoing yet have always struggled to maintain friendships due to my irratic behaviour. I have made lots of friends but only maybe 2/3 are able to truly understand me and accept me. Most others probably class me as "psycho".
I am looking for anyone to chat to who can relate, or offer the best websites to access for support?
I have worked so hard on myself and I have improved massively, but I do still have the lcrises"moments of over reaction. I have just enrolled on a new course and I am worried I will do what I always do, which is to let something small going wrong prevent me from carrying on.
I have been to the gp, was on the cbt waiting list for 8 months but I didn't feel it helped so stopped sessions.. I find there is next to no support for this condition on a long term basis. I was working full time on a good wage and now I feel like unless I get long term sipport I'll never get back to full time work and sustain it.
Thanks if you got this far 

Hello lovely lady. Just so say I have a family member with BPD and a close friend too. It sounds like you are working so hard on your mental health, and that's awesome - it also sounds like you understand your reactions really well now. That's huge! Well done. Don't forget how far you've already come - and the first bit's got to be the worst, right?
The friend who has BPD has had Dialectal Behav Therapy from a charity in London, who also ran support groups and mindfulness courses and that kind of thing. She says it's been brilliant - I'll try and find the name. There is also a bpd website with many support group links so maybe there'll be something in your area?
The family member who has BPD has been having EMDR therapy, because her issues seem to stem from some really horrible childhood traumas, so she's taken the approach of tackling that first and foremost. Everyone is different of course.
You're not alone!

Hi There 90sbabyx,

We're sorry to hear you've had a hard time and are pleased you've heard from one of our other users.

We wanted to wish you well - we hope things look brighter for you really soon. Keep going!