How do i sort my life out

[theoffice]

I drink to much, so much so i think i am an alcoholic. i cant stop. I am scared to ask for help in case SS take my kids off me.

I feel I cant cope with myself or my emotions. My kids deserve better than me. All i ever wanted was to have children to love and cherish, but I am not a good mum. I feel selfish and resentful of them and the life i have got.

I really need to sort myself out but i dont know where to start

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Thank you for asking yurtgirl, she has been quite easy to get along with of late and had demonstrated some quite sensible behaviour in awkward circumstances. Things are calm and I am hoping we will work up to communicating more in the forthcoming weeks. Sorry theoffice but as you might know she is watching the boards and a comment on your thread is more likely to go unnoticed than if I post on my own thread! Thanks for your indulgence.

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anorak xxxxx you are such a strong person. My admiration for you grows with each new thing I learn about you.

theoffice - I can't add any more to what has been said. Your first step needs to be your doctor. From my understanding of these situations, it seems that you have to really hit rock bottom before things improve. And the improving begins when you realise you need help, then go about accepting it. You are at that stage now, and that is so positive. Help is there for you, you just have to grab it. I hope you are ok tonight and keep posting to let us know how you are. This is a fabulous place for support, use it as much as you can. xx

Theoffice...how are things? Did you go to the doc's?

Theoffice...are you hiding from this thread?

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Please post, theoffice. People here are worried about you and I think you should at least say something, even if it's thanks, but no thanks.

Thank you everyone for your messages. i have seen my GP and he has reffered me for counselling.

I have not had a drink since i posted this thread. i think although I was drinking too much, posting that I think i have a problem has made me take positive steps to deal with my problems before turning to drink.

I feel so much better and my house is very tidy! I have also taked at length with my husband about this and he is supporting me with my emotional problems.

Sorry to be so vague, but thanks to everyone for your support

That's fantastic news, theoffice, you are so brave to have gone out to find the help you need. I'm so glad that your dh is being supportive of you, I hope he is being sensitive enough to keep the alcohol out of the house too.

Well done, I admire your strength.

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hello, I just thought I would update any of you who are intrerested

After posting this, I stopped drinking and then started again, but managed to cut down before christmas. Then after christams I have drank very little and managed to control my drinking to maybe one or two glasses of wine twice a week, which is quite amazing. I feel so much better and if I do have even a small drink now I get a blazing headache ! I am losing weight and I am getting really organised. i still havent had any counselling, GP said the waiting list is long, but tbh I think i am dealing with alot of issues myself. My husband has stopped drinking as much now and pulls me up whenever he thinks I am going to finish the bottle of wine off, which I do still want to do but know that I dont want to, if that makes sense!

I know it is early days but I really think I have beaten it this time and a life without any drink at all, I could cope with.

Thanks for all your help, it really helped writing it down and acknowledging i had a problem and tbh even now it disgusts me what i used to do to myself

well done! Life sounds good for you now. I didn't contribute to your original thread, but wanted to say well done now!