March supportive chat thread

[PurpleFrames]

Hi everyone-
There's been some lovely support on a recent thread and I thought expanding it out could get more of us talking?

I have a Drs appointment tomorrow to discuss my second opinion. I'm pretty stressed as I got a call a week ago asking me to come in but I couldn't get an appt sooner- so I made myself a week worrying about what was happening. Services make me paranoid 🙈 I'm struggling not to use negative strategies atm.

Hope there's someone out there x

Hi, is it alright if I join?

Have had anxiety and depression for a few years now, but only got help about a year ago. Tried to commit suicide a couple of times last summer, then my DM was diagnosed with a life threatening condition (about 6 months ago) which in some way gave me a reason to stay. DB was admitted to ICU a few weeks ago with a suspected similar/same problem to DM (touchwood—it’s not!) and waiting on answers in him. He’s just so little, I feel so helpless.

I’m trying to help my family as much as I can and be strong but I just don’t know how. Especially with all the coronavirus, I could loose both my DM and DB so am scared to leave the house, but can’t isolate as have so many things on

Can I join please? Just for a bit of company? I’m having outpatient treatment for anorexia but my anxiety is so bad at the moment over all the panic buying food - I worry about not being able to get my ‘safe foods’. I just can’t relax. Wishing everyone here a peaceful evening.

Welcome lost and star.

For some reason I'm back to daily phone calls from CMHT

I’m so anxious my therapy will be stopped due to CV I’m also so scared of self isolating I’m so much more vulnerable on my own

Hugs grumpbum123. I hope it can continue somehow. I'm worried about my blood test due next week, will I still be able to get there, and is it safe?

Sorry for being a poor thread host and not replying to people much or welcoming everyone.

I'm not doing very well at all atm- nearly at hospitalisation point.

Just wanted to say I'm still reading and sending good thoughts.

I'm petrified about corona closing down my support- my head is so gone right now it's awful.

Take care everyone x

Thank you @UpOnDown

@Grumpbum123 - same, I’m terrified of my weekly therapy appointments being cancelled, I feel like I need support more than ever right now, as it seems many of you do too.
Take care @PurpleFrames, thinking of you.

I’ve had all my weekly therapy appointments changed to FaceTime/Skype for the time being. Debating self isolating (can’t face going out) but it’s going to be very hard to

I hope you're all ok, particularly PurpleFrames. I'm really worried about my clozapine blood test due next week.

How's everyone doing?

Honestly? Not too great. More stressed out since the news re exams cancelled as I was due to sit some. In a way slightly glad as I was so stressed and fucked up the mocks but I’m glad to be in isolation. I’m going absolutely mad with the hand washing etc and am terrified of leaving. After tmrw am not leaving the house unless absolutely necessary.

How are you @UpOnDown

Not great here either horrible intrusive thoughts and panics

I'm struggling with the coronavirus too...I have to go out Monday, and I'm scared. I think it's made the voices worse.

Same as everyone, not doing great. My anxiety is through the roof and I just can’t settle. Eating disorder much worse because of the stress. I’m close to inpatient treatment due to my weight and I’m scared it’s going to get lower as no one to check me. I expect they’ve closed the setting anyway.

How's everyone doing? I'm dreading going out tomorrow, can't not go.

Hi @UpOnDown, is it your blood test tomorrow? Is that what you have to go out for?

I'm really struggling- off meds and wishing I was dead 24/7. Given up on my self really- not saying it for any support just to let people know I haven't meant to be personal in not being engaged and in touch with you all. I'm sorry I didn't think it through before making this thread

It is @Star8181, I'm really worried about it.

I'm so sorry you're feeling that way @PurpleFrames. Big hugs

@UpOnDown You will be fine, follow the advice given and wash your hands thoroughly after and try and stay 2m away from people if you can.

@PurpleFrames sorry you feel so bad at the moment, we’re here, please keep talking.

I’m feeling pretty horrendous this morning - my closest colleague has come down with CV and I can’t stop crying. I feel like I’m on the verge of a panic attack :(

I did follow advice, the dr had trouble getting blood though. At least that's it for a month, but they wouldn't let me book an appointment for a month's time. The receptionist was (understandably) in a bad mood.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad @star8181, that must be really difficult.

Can I join please? I was doing so well since this virus stuff kicked off. Now I keep crying. My dad went in hospital with CV suspected but is now out and getting better. It's like the shock didn't hit me until days later.

My anxiety is through the roof most of the time. Yesterday I had - I think - a disassociating episode and it scared me because I couldn't bring myself back to reality. I thought I was going to faint and ended up very sleepy. I also wanted to self harm but managed to avoid it.

I want to get a sick note for work but will I be able to? I had a text to say don't come to the surgery.

@BlackCatFan Could you talk to the gp on the phone about a fit note? I'm sorry you're struggling so much

@UpOnDown I think I'll try to call them in the morning. I'm not in work until Wednesday. I'm worried the Dr's will be annoyed with me as they're probably extremely busy.

I hope everyone else is doing alright. This will pass, everything will be normal again eventually. It's just driving me mad not knowing when that will be.

That sounds a good idea @BlackCatFan, I'm sure they wont be annoyed with you, they're there for that sort of thing.

I know what you mean re: eventual normality, it's driving me crazy too.