This corona virus is sending me over the edge

[brainfogg]

I know no one can tell me it will be ok but I haven’t had anxiety this out of control in about a year. It’s been managed fairly well with meds and I haven’t had any OCD symptoms in ages but it’s all coming back.

I’m washing my hands obsessively, using lots of hand gel, checking the news every 20 mins, not sleeping, last night when DH got back from shopping I wiped every single item with antibacterial spray. Never don’t that before.

My heart is racing constantly, I’m not getting on with things I need to do, I’m debating ordering masks but read they don’t do much. So then I’m thinking get my immune system stronger but what if it mutates into a virus that causes that overreaction of the immune system? Cykotine storm I think. So maybe I’m better not strengthening it too much.

I have a part time job that involves looking after children and am thinking I shouldn’t go because I’m scared I’ll pass it to them or them to me but we need the money.

Sorry for the very long post. I’m in turmoil and I hate that because it’s so selfish of me, there’s people truly suffering and I genuinely want them not to be. I find this world very hard to cope with.

Dani come back after the gp appointment and tell us how it went. Also maybe mention you aren’t feeling great. They are there to help you.

Theres a specific doctor i have been recomended who is in on monday so i intend to call on monday if i dont already break down later on today 😥😔

Thankyou to everyone. Glad i joined and have people to talk to who understand ❤️

Can you book an appointment for Monday ?

Our gps are strange its hard believe it or not to book app for ie monday etc. You have to call on the day at 8am x

Sending love to you Dani 💓 I understand so much of how you feel, health anxiety is the worst. It really really stops us from having much quality of life because we are permanently in fear and it’s a very real kind of fear. I’ve spent so much time worrying over the years and it’s so sad, haven’t been truly happy in a very long time. How are you feeling now?

I’m struggling a lot with what’s happening now, it’s starting to take a toll on me, my hands are in a real state from so much washing even though I’m using moisturiser. I’m having to have a shower and change my clothes every time I come back in from anywhere. I’m constantly exhausted recently and my brain feels worn out. I’ve had to tell people that I can’t do anything social anymore or meet up, only going out for work and occasional shop visits which are so stressful.
The anxiety is bad enough but I’m feeling a lot of anger as well now too, I don’t think the government have any intention of trying to stop this, things like Crufts are still going ahead this weekend which is close to me, I really don’t want to believe this but I’m thinking more and more that they’re taking advantage of an opportunity here which makes me feel ill.

Dani, how did the dr appointment go? Any news on toddlers rash?

Hi so the doctor today was lovy she said doesnt look fungal or bacteria. She thinks it is eczema like the doc 2 weeks ago and it does flare up. papular eczema She thinks it is. Said its the same as what she gets and to continue the steriod for few weeks then taper it off gradually. Im that way 2 docs said fungal 2 eczema. Who the hell do i believe 😭 I also spoke to her about me and she gave me a number to call and go from there for mental health team. She could see the toll it was taking on me. Its insane how we let this stuff consume us. I just need to hope and pray this this also fades and stays away. Im just one these people that like to know exactly what it is to get the right treatment. Dont have patience for trial and error especially when comes to my kids 😥

@brainfogg my hands look like a 80 year olds no joke. And i agree they could have did so much to stop it getting here and im starting to think they wanted it to get rid off over populating especially china I fully think all things should be cancelled including schools until after easter break to get this sorted. We can home school Yours seems worse than mines i need to get out myself wether it be a walk rnd corner or to the shops. I think this rash is keepn my mind off the corona 😔

So glad you managed to see the dr Danigirl, well done for going. It’s difficult isn’t it when difficult health professionals tell us different things. I guess go with the gp today, continue with the steroids for a few weeks and then see where you are with the situation.
Oh I’m so glad she took your mental health seriously, again well done for mentioning it. It does consume us you’re right. Have you seen the positive corona thread on here? It’s really useful at being factual but also reassuring, it’s on here on the coronavirus topic try and have a read of it, it’s helped me a lot lately.

Just seen your other reply! Yep my hands look exactly like yours it seems! I’m surprised I have any skin left 😉
I agree and think they should cancel everything while tneres still some time, even though I know it’s not that simple.
I get what you’re saying I think sometimes we worry about one thing because our brains can then have a break from the other things we worry about.

Hey Dani,

Glad you got your toddler seen. I thought it would be eczema. Keep up with the cream and I’m sure it will go.

If it was fungal as I said earlier it would have a smell to it.

Cold weather and warm houses don’t help. Keep the cream on and it will clear up soon.

Well done for mentioning how you feel. Glad you will get some help. Did it feel easier to have talked about it with the doctor?

Thanks @DobbyTheHouseElk**@brainfogg yes definately hate went doctors tell you different things. Im hoping it does go again i just get confused because the steriod worked then stopped. Iv had few fungal infections and never smelled or maybe have not smelled them 🧐. Im praying this goes as i cant deal at all totally killing my life right now. I will call the place tomorrow for the mental health team and try do things to take my mind off of it. Yes @DobbyTheHouseElk. Lately its been flowing out my mouth like i cant contain it. Meer talking sends tears to my eyes so its a giveaway. Didnt full on have mental breakdown because my dd was there or i would have. I sorta took over her appointment 🤨

Well done Dani. I’m really glad you are getting help.

I called this morning. Hung up and called back. They put you onto a list and i should get call back 10 days x

That must have taken a lot to call. Fantastic

Im dreading the next call back the one where i need to tell them how pyscho i have been feeling 😭

@Danigirl02002 well done I’m proud of you.

So sorry to be negative but I’m in a real bad state again, I started getting an irritated throat this morning and it’s not great now, got a very slight blocked nose but am aching as well in my legs. I’m absolutely paranoid it’s coronavirus from looking after the kids this week and am feeling so guilty. Should I call 111?
Then to make it worse I’ve just found out there’s 4 cases in my area I’ll never forgive myself if I’ve given this to people, my anxiety is spiralling again.

I’ve tried so ridiculously hard over the past couple of months to improve my diet, drink more water, take vitamin supplements, improve hand hygiene to crazy levels, I’m just disappointed in myself to have got ill and my DH isn’t happy and wants me to give up work from next week.

Yes, do call 111. It's what they're there for, to reassure and offer advice.

It's incredibly unlikely to be the coronavirus from what you've said but even if it is, then it's here now and you can't change it. All you can do is keep getting through the next few minutes, over and over again, until you feel okay again.

I've had a sore throat all day and its getting worse, and I know some people in my office building at work are self-isolating right now. So there's a tiny, tiny chance this is it. Or maybe it's a normal cold. Either way, it's unavoidable. Nothing we can do now, and we can't blame them or ourselves for being contagious if we are.

Just keep going

Thanks @fuckitywhy I did the online 111 assessment and it said I’m safe to manage my symptoms at home so I’m going to see how I am and call in the morning maybe, I don’t feel terrible at all and no temperature so that’s something.

What about you are you going to call them? I really hope you’re ok. This whole thing is absolutely awful and I’m having to do what you suggested and take it a few minutes at a time, today has been horrendous.

As an anxiety sufferer myself, its so challenging and this whole Virus thing will make us feel worse especially those with Health Anxiety ( like me).

@SunshineMoon100 absolutely I think this is what’s so hard about it. If we already have anxiety or depression or any other mental health problem then life already feels like a struggle some days. Even just getting through those days feels like a huge ordeal, then you add this on top of all of those challenges and it can feel unbearable.

Health anxiety is terrible believe me I understand. You’re not alone with this.

It is a constant daily struggle, I can have weeks when i can fixate on a particular health worry and spend all my time worrying about it and then eventually let it go.
But this Viirus thing is everywhere, everyones constantly talking about it. I dont usually watch the news but I am watching it now so i dont miss out any important info so it is going to
Heighten our already existing anxieties.
Im worried sick for my kids going to school with the virus situation. Its just worry after worry.

Uh i hear you. Im having a bad day today her rash seems to be spreading round the foot now its bad i dont believe doctors. I think im going to treat as fungal for a week and see how it responds. I really want to take it out the equation. I can deal with eczema but u just need to know its eating me from the inside i just want my baby back to normal. But weird thing is she doesnt itch at all? And the corona. Dont get me started. Its literally round the corner. A female scotland rugby player just back from italy where there game was cancelled because of corona and im guessing they didnt self isolate and now the whole sports centre is shut down. Its so selfish