This corona virus is sending me over the edge

[brainfogg]

I know no one can tell me it will be ok but I haven’t had anxiety this out of control in about a year. It’s been managed fairly well with meds and I haven’t had any OCD symptoms in ages but it’s all coming back.

I’m washing my hands obsessively, using lots of hand gel, checking the news every 20 mins, not sleeping, last night when DH got back from shopping I wiped every single item with antibacterial spray. Never don’t that before.

My heart is racing constantly, I’m not getting on with things I need to do, I’m debating ordering masks but read they don’t do much. So then I’m thinking get my immune system stronger but what if it mutates into a virus that causes that overreaction of the immune system? Cykotine storm I think. So maybe I’m better not strengthening it too much.

I have a part time job that involves looking after children and am thinking I shouldn’t go because I’m scared I’ll pass it to them or them to me but we need the money.

Sorry for the very long post. I’m in turmoil and I hate that because it’s so selfish of me, there’s people truly suffering and I genuinely want them not to be. I find this world very hard to cope with.

I don’t get how anyone can cope. Feel like we’re all just waiting to die.

I feel the same Dizzywizz. I'm 66 and my husband is 73. He's getting on with decorating the entire house, taking up carpet, painting, choosing curtains etc. and I just think "What's the point? We will be dead before it can be finished" I genuinely don't think we will survive this. I'm also worried that our daughter (aged 29 and living alone 30 miles away) will get it too. Every day there is news of young healthy people dying of this disease. I'm terrified and totally pessimistic. (I suffer with depression and anxiety anyway).

@CustardySergeant it feels like every 5 mins the news updates gleefully with more dead...why wouldn’t we all get it? I tried to have a nap earlier but instead just cried and cried

Overtaken by anxiety, alone, lots of tears, dread going out for anything essential. Attempting to make a face mask shield, will look silly but doing best I can as health vulnerable. So much to organise at home and finding it difficult to do anything. Have to come to terms,, shouldn't be spending days in a state as that won't help immune system. Totally understand the OP.

@tangledhair what do you have to organise? Have you tried making a list so you Can do one thing at a time? Makes it more manageable

@Dizzywizz thank you. It's sorting in my house really, yes I will do a list and a bit at a time will be best. You think there's plenty of time and I was planning decoration etc but now will just aim to be tidy and sorted, have made a start. I hope you are coping alright today.

Thanks @tangledhair hair. It’s my day off today and I’m finding it’s best to be busy, I know I will feel better tomorrow when I am working from home.

@brainfogg@DobbyTheHouseElk@OneOfTheGrundys how are you guys doing. I was doing better. Even gained weight eating not good. But im about to start 1st night shift to avoid public at shops right now and my daughters rash cleared and now its looking like starting again. Im at my wits end and its making me feel sick again😭. Why does it go away and come back up like 2 weeks cycles. Is this normal for ezcema ? My anxiety is back i can feel it 😭😭😭

@Danigirl02002 I lost this thread. So I’m back now. I’m a lot calmer now it’s actually here I think, now everybody is talking about it. No idea why.

I’m not going out, but then we can’t anyway.

How is the rash? If it goes and comes back could it be food intolerances or maybe it does go in cycles.

Hi how is everyone doing ? Xx

Up and down. At times have had lots of wobbles, feel scared of family becoming ill - just generally feel scared and neurotic. Also, had to put our dog down on Monday - am heartbroken. Feels even more worst as happened during lockdown

Oh Im so sorry to hear that :-(
Sending u hugs, its one of the hardest things to have to deal with. I had my dog put down a few years ago.

Thank you @SunshineMoon100 I miss her so much that it physically hurts

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