This corona virus is sending me over the edge

[brainfogg]

I know no one can tell me it will be ok but I haven’t had anxiety this out of control in about a year. It’s been managed fairly well with meds and I haven’t had any OCD symptoms in ages but it’s all coming back.

I’m washing my hands obsessively, using lots of hand gel, checking the news every 20 mins, not sleeping, last night when DH got back from shopping I wiped every single item with antibacterial spray. Never don’t that before.

My heart is racing constantly, I’m not getting on with things I need to do, I’m debating ordering masks but read they don’t do much. So then I’m thinking get my immune system stronger but what if it mutates into a virus that causes that overreaction of the immune system? Cykotine storm I think. So maybe I’m better not strengthening it too much.

I have a part time job that involves looking after children and am thinking I shouldn’t go because I’m scared I’ll pass it to them or them to me but we need the money.

Sorry for the very long post. I’m in turmoil and I hate that because it’s so selfish of me, there’s people truly suffering and I genuinely want them not to be. I find this world very hard to cope with.

I usually have good mental health but I'm also struggling at times with hearing about the virus so I really feel for you all. If it's hard to limit SM can you focus on helping others rather than the negative frightening messages? So posting reminding people that there's a lot of the population who recover and have only mild symptoms, starting an online book club, starting a thread on home exercises etc

I am now unwell. Feel like shit. But I think it’s viral tonsillitis - DD1 said it’d been going round her class recently, she got ill, then DS, now me.

Makes me feel fluey- I have ME, fibromyalgia and others, so even a cold wipes me out, so how can I tell if it’s more?! I have noticed a bit of coughing in the house but not persistent from anyone. I have no fever but the kids did.

It’s the not knowing that’s making me feel worse - I’d love to think ok this is CV (sore throat/headaches etc CAN feature) but I have no way of knowing, and I’ll keep wondering whether I’m still going to get it (and suffer much worse)

Sorry that was not a helpful post at all.

I think today’s priority is going to be sleep!

I have found my people.

DH is immunosuppressed and I’m terrified. I want to lock myself away and not have any of us leave the house. If he gets it it will definitely be bad news. I have had a headache, burning chest & cough for 3 days so we are SI but must just be a normal virus tbh. I think if it was CV he would be dead already. But then I think hopefully “maybe, by some miracle, we have a really mild version and will be fine” before it hits me again that actually it will kill him. I am dreading going back to work and having to mix with people again. I almost feel safe lock in at home.

Can I join in please? I’ve suffered from OCD in the past, mainly the intrusive thoughts but I was on top of it. But I have been tipped over the edge today. I am so worried that I have corona. I am shaking.

BBC World Service news is good- not hysterical and covering things other than the pandemic still. I am using videos on YouTube to fall asleep. There are lots of music to send you to sleep vids on offer and they really work for me.

I am petrified to be honest. I was having panic attacks last night and my mind is running overtime with conspiracy theories. I don't know what is real and just want my life back

How is everyone doing? So find out at work few people been talking about me because of my fear and anxiety of working at this supermarket with money etc. I mean people are coughing and passing money out their mouths. My work just are not doing enough. Iv asked for card system to be put in place. Nope. Im about to ask for unpaid leave or ask for shifts once stores closed. I put on a front as people been talking about me but enoughs enough as people said whose going to watch our kids. Worse we give it to kids. How you ment to isolate a 2 yo 🙄 i have hospital monday 30 as had hemorage in my eye weeks back and need ultrasound scared to attend the hospital now 😭. Stress will be making my eye worse it does feel worse. Anyone had any luck with the doctors signing us off due to coronavirus with severe anxiety? Dont want normal sick thats disciplined action after and therapist in work after to much hassel. Hope everyones ok x

Hello, everyone.

Hope you're all doing okay.

Despite a life long tendency to anxiety, I seem to be doing mostly okay. It comes and goes. I think there's a period of shock and adjustment. We manage this period as best we can and then we move on.

Make plans, make lists. Do a little when you can, rest when you need to. One day at a time.

I'm here and happy to help out if I can.

Anyone else OBSESSING over possible symptoms?? We're stuck in Australia and the lovely hostel we're in are keeping us and a handful of other who are stranded stranded on until things improve. I'm obsessively thinking I've a sore throat and they're all going to catch it off me. I know I haven't really got a sore throat (I had a very slight tickel after 7 hours under the air-conditioning) or temperature but my anxiety is making me feel like I do, and my chest feels like it has a tight band around it all the time. Feel wretched. Want to just go to bed and hide.

Hi everyone, Just checking how everyone is doing?

@turnandfacethenamechange
Im the same, keep checking to see if i have a temp these days. Such a challenge when you already have Anxiety

@turnandfacethenamechange Exactly the same! If anyone in my house coughs my anxiety goes through the roof!

Can I join? I'm a key worker but managed to get a sick note from my GP yesterday. I felt so guilty for ringing them but they were actually really nice.
My anxiety is through the roof. I called in sick this morning and ended up getting emotional - major embarrassment. I only started this job a month ago.
I am mostly in a ball crying.
I need to increase my meds, find some structure in my day, make sure I get fresh air, try to think positive, and most importantly accept the situation and try to move on/learn to live with it. (Something I'm yet to do).

Hope everyone is doing ok. It's a beautiful morning.

Don’t feel bad about crying on the phone about this. It is completely understandable that you are suffering. Anyone who isn’t worried is deluded!

I think I need to stop endlessly reading and watching the news. It’s sending me over the edge.

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morning. really struggling with the self isolating. shouldn't be, have nice house and garden. but want to get out, and away from kids and look at something new and not feel like just a cook and cleaner. Only been 10 days

Oh sod the cooking and cleaning. Make it as easy on yourself as possible. It’s all such a shock to everyone.
I too was watching FAR TOO MUCH news and on too much social media aswell. I’ve decided to seriously restrict it and just connect with old friends and try to stay sane. But it’s so good that it’s sunny and we can have fresh air. Garden for me.

Can I join? I’ve had health anxiety for years and this is absolutely breaking me.

I keep checking my temperature and the kids. Every time I breathe I think I’ve got some sort of symptom. I’m fat so I’m fucked . I am struggling to cope I’m a key worker so still have to go into work day in day out dealing with people. I have to leave the kids with family/friends which is giving me more anxiety but I can’t afford to leave work unpaid.

I cry before every shift I’m belittled by my partner and I can’t cope anymore. I’ve deleted Facebook and news apps and I’m struggling. Just need something from somebody who actually understands!

I'm really anxious about what's going on but mine is more to do with feeling trapped and unable to go anywhere. Which I guess is not entirely true. I can go food shopping and go for daily exercise. I'm lucky we live in a place where nearby we can go for secluded walks. In the height of summer you don't see many people there so we will get fresh air. We will go food shopping at the weekend which is still getting out. I'm observing the rules right now but its really worrying in some ways

Hi my anxiety is through the roof I work in the nhs and I am so worried obviously I dnt show it when I'm at work .
I've always had health anxiety anyway.
I'm slight asthmatic so I'm not in high risk group.
Please someone tell me something positive I need to relax before my 12 hour shift tomorrow, just spoke to my doctor who said we are all in the same boat and has upped my antidepressants.
I feel for you guys anyone with health anxiety is awful.

Keep safe everyone xx

My 2 yr old is sneezing. Runny nose and slight cough. Shes had cough few weeks on and off since her last bad cold 6 weeks ago. Now this girl hasnt been outside our house in 6 weeks. How is it possible she has the cold? Shes not been round family even for at least 3 weeks. Im baffled? And annoyed poor child. Can you catch cold from being in garden. Was a bit cold other day when she was out for half hour 😭

Ps supermarkets seems abit more organised although im considering unpaid leave right now

@BestStressed can you not get off work and use kids out school as excuse. They have to pay you. They could say schools open for key workers but say one kids has athsma or something. Are they all school age Any at nursery? Kids shouldnt be with anyone else right now were not ment to mix. Such a hard prediciment isnt it. Im a key worker too 😭

Childcare issues is unpaid leave , isolating because of someone else is unpaid only paid if somebody is showing symptoms but even then ssp so unaffordable. Thankfully we have less customers now but I just feel so anxious. One at school two at nursery but they’ve said if you have friends or family they are expected to do childcare