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Mental health

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tammybear · 24/09/2004 23:55

ive been trying to be cheery and joking etc, but at the moment i feel low. really really low. i feel like going to get my pills and downing them all

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cab · 25/09/2004 08:41

Tammy hope you're doing ok this morning.xxx

coppertop · 25/09/2004 08:44

Sorry I missed this last night, Tammybear. Hope you're feeling a little better this morning. xxx

MUMINAMILLION · 25/09/2004 08:54

Must have just gone to bed when you came on TB. So sorry you felt so low - nights are the worst. How did you sleep? Are you feeling a little better this morning?

wobblyknicks · 25/09/2004 08:56

Sorry I missed this too tb, hope you feel better this morning and I hope you get some of your worries sorted out.

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tammybear · 25/09/2004 09:53

i think i fell asleep gone 2:30. mum woke me up calling me this morning but luckily i was due to get up neway for dd. dd's cheering me up slightly. i feel really tired at the moment. thanks for checking up on me xxx

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MUMINAMILLION · 25/09/2004 09:59

Hi TB. Glad to hear your spirits are a little up. Have you heard from dh?

MTS · 25/09/2004 10:00

morning tammybear. only just seen this thread this morning. just a quick question - have you changed onto any forms of hormonal contraception recently as sometimes they can make you feel depressed - I got really depressed on the Progestogen only Pill

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tammybear · 25/09/2004 10:04

MIAM - yeah i heard from dp but he was quite tired, so i left him to sleep otherwise hed just start getting ratty as he had been to college and work yesterday, so leaving it til today before i talk to him properly.

MTS - i havent changed them, but i got a new 6months supply of the microgynon pills but my mum got the subscription from the doctors for me, so i didnt have my blood pressure done. mum seems to think it might be partly due to that

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MUMINAMILLION · 25/09/2004 10:09

I'm sure you will feel much better once you have had a chance to really speak to him. I think his response was just initial shock and worry TBH, and his reaction was just one more thing added to everything else that made you so low. So once things are in the open, that will be one less thing for you to worry about, and you will have his support too.

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tammybear · 25/09/2004 10:34

lost my internet connection for a minute then just when i was trying to upload my holiday photos.

thanks MIAM, i know hes probably still asleep at the moment so will give him a call this afternoon if i dont hear from him beforehand. just seen ur thread, and im glad that ur feeling better xxx

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Kayleigh · 25/09/2004 11:21

tammybear, just wanted to say I'm sorry you're not feeling too good. X

MUMINAMILLION · 25/09/2004 12:05

Thanks. x

unicorn · 25/09/2004 12:52

Hope u are feeling better today Tammybear...
just remember there's loads of support/help here for you.

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tammybear · 25/09/2004 13:28

thanks girls. spoke to dp for over an hour and has cheered me up a bit. im going to speak to my mum tonight as shes coming over and see if she'd be willing to have dd next weekend so i can see him. ive also been sorting out my digital photos from our holiday and have ordered a few off the internet to be printed off. xxx

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joanneg · 25/09/2004 14:26

Tammy - so so glad that you are feeling a bit better today. What a good idea about seeing if your mum can babysit next weekend. Never be lonely - you know you have our support on here I was genuinly worried about last night and had trouble sleeping - so never think just because it is on the internet and not RL that it means less. hugs to you (())

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tammybear · 25/09/2004 14:32

awww joanneg ((hugs))

i have to confess, i have also been stressing because i have been worried that i might be pregnant. my period was a bit funny, and i havent been "active" for over 2 years, and the last time i was resulted with dd. mums always going on about how i worry too much, and i know i do as every little thing seems to worry me. even me being on the pill, i still worry that i still could end up pregnant. silly i know

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cab · 25/09/2004 21:49

tb, sorry I missed you earlier - major shop for our hols next week.
Very glad to hear you're feeling better today.
Hope you're having a nice night with your mum.xxx

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tammybear · 26/09/2004 16:56

i had an even worse night trying to sleep last night. last time i remember looking at the clock it was 3:30am. I woke up at 10:45 this morning I felt bad for dd but she was quite happy with the lie in. Im going to dp's on friday. He thinks Im going to come on sat but Im surprising him on friday at work. He works at a cinema so I can just watch a film whilst Im waiting for him. Went shopping today whilst mum took dd to park. Brought myself a new hat, jacket and skirt, and found out I can use my student card to get 10% discount

Also found out dp might be able to move in with me a year earlier than expected as the last year of his degree he can do at a uni near me. Thats really cheered me up but not getting my hopes up in case he doesnt. But is a nice thought. Still feeling pretty down though. I spoke to mum about some of my money problems. Didnt go into too much detail, but she said she's not helping my sister out with money anymore (thank God) and shes going to start giving me £20 a week to help me out which is really kind of her. She chickened out of talking to dad about getting me a car lol. I think it was because I was sat there though. Although dad did ask if I had a car yet, and I was half expecting him to say "well if you look out the window, that car there is for you!" lol

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MUMINAMILLION · 26/09/2004 18:42

Tammybear, really glad that things seem to be looking a bit brighter for you. And dont feel guilty about having a lie in!!!!! Retail therapy and talking to your mum are definately the way to go. (Though talking to your mum is possibly better as its free!). Hope that friday goes well for you. xx

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tammybear · 27/09/2004 11:00

Have had a terrible morning so far. Managed to sleep just after 12 last night which is an improvement and only woke up at 6 and fell back to sleep. I then woke up at 7:30 cos of my alarm but had a lie in til 8. I felt so tired still which I think is cos of my sleeping pills, and kept thinking should I go to Tumble Tots or should I leave it. I had missed last week as I was asleep Oops!

Neway decided to get up for dd's sake. Thought it was best to go. Got ready. Had a phone call from HV, said shes going to come round Thurs as she spoke to my doc and will do dd's 21month check there, and is going to talk over some things to help me, and suggested that home start thing which I didnt think was part of our area. I left earlier than usual as I thought I wanted to take my time getting to TT as I have to climb a big hill to get there.

During TT, dd threw tantrum after tantrum, and I felt like bursting into tears. She never joins in with song time, she rather carry on doing what she was doing, and will always run away from the circle when I "drag" her there. Luckily, there was another little boy there today doing the same, and his mum was sympathising with me lol. When it had finished, I was so relieved. I just wanted to get home. Got outside my door, and realised my keys were still in the house!! Had to ring my mum up to come out of work to open the door for me, as she has my spare key. I am now sat on my floor, with a banging headache, hungry tummy, and feel like crying I know its not that bad, but its just typical, and has put me in a really bad mood Dont think Ill be stepping outside the house again today. I got a load of washing up from last night still to do

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unicorn · 27/09/2004 11:23

Poor you.
If it's any consolation I used to HATE (with a vengence) my daughter's crechendo class.(equivalent to TT)
She would NEVER do what everyone else did, and had millions of tantrums.
I used to feel so stressed, all the other mums had perfectly behaved kids etc - in the end I thought B*gger this for a game of soldiers... she's not enjoying it, I am definately Not... so I stopped taking her.
Try and relax(!) for the rest of the day.

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tammybear · 27/09/2004 19:12

I feel like crying. I was trying to explain to dp how I feel, and how bored I am at home with dd (I know sounds awful but I am which is what is triggering my low mood) and he doesnt seem to understand what Im trying to say. I was trying to say that I dont think I can cope waiting til dd starts full time school before I can get a full time job to be able to save my sanity. I was trying to compare it to him being off college for months due to the summer, and asked him if he got bored. He said yeah but he finds something to do. I was then going to say but he does what he wants to do, I cant because of dd, but he then butted in saying I get easily bored and have a short attention span. That really hurt. Should I be bothered by that comment? We both went quiet and he said he was going to go, which Im glad he did cos I felt like hangin up

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