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[beansmum]

just wrote a huge post about all the things i wanted to get off my chest but, stupid me, forgot to type a subject. wasn't very interesting anyway

hey beansmum, whats up?

Am curious bm, but hope that by typing it, that at least you've got it off your chest a bit!

Sorry beansmum, just started a new thread to ask how you were!! Silly me. How are you?

just miserable about going back to uni, will miss ds, will have no friends. i'm dreading it. also have no money

When do you go, and where?

aww beansmum. im not in the exact same boat as u. money is a problem but i start college friday and a little bit scared when i went to college last year the only friend i made hardly ever turned up lol. ull make friends, just getting chatting to people and ull be fine. when r u starting?

crying now. shouldn't have started thinking about it. start on 4th oct, doing maths in edinburgh. was getting used to the idea but this week has gone so quickly and now there's only a week to go. i will miss ds so much, haven't left him since he was born and now he'll be in the nursery all day. I hate not knowing anyone and i hate feeling like i'm going to let everyone down if i cant do well this year.

Im assuming this isnt your first year then?

((hugs)) beansmum - how old is your ds?

That sounded a bit blunt - didnt mean it to be. I was just wondering if this was a new course for you, or if you are in the middle of one.

3rd year, but been at uni for 4 yrs because i changed course then took a year out to have bean. so all my friends graduated this year and are off doing exciting things.

Aw Beansmum, once you are there and you start to get to know people you will be fine. Its the worry of the unknown, im sure your ds will love nursery as its like playtime all day for him, lots of other little people and surrounded by toys...Chin Up!
And after a few days at College/Uni with a bit of adult conversation you will wonder what you were so sad about.
Good Luckxx

Are you happy with the nursery that he will be going to?

aww beansmum. everyone will be fine. your ds will love it at nursery as he'll get to interact with other children, and its such a scary thought going somewhere u havent before and not knowing anyone, but its a chance for u to make new friends

ds is 16wks. he's too little to be left at the nursery all day long

beansmum, it sounds like you are under a lot of pressure to do this course for others.

i dont want new friends i want my old friends back.

Are you looking forward to the course otherwise? Or have you been worrying about it before now? I'm just concerned when you say you are worried about letting others down.

think my family are trying not to put me under any pressure and they keep saying that i don't have to do it. but my parents helped me buy a house near uni and are now wanting to buy a house for themselves but will have to get a smaller one cos they gave me lots of their savings

Would it be possible to put off going for another year? It sounds like you parents are very understand, and obviously care about you very much. Im sure they would not want you to be unhappy and take on something which may be too much for you at the moment.

i keep trying out posts, but what i keep typing isnt very helpful. but im sending you lots of (((((((((hugs))))))))))

my dad will be really upset if i don't finish this course. I have enjoyed it so far, if i didn't have bean i would probably be quite looking forward to going back. i just don't want to leave him, i feel like i should be at home looking after him

I agree with mim - If it making you so unhappy cant you carry your credits forward?

lol tammybear

How many hours will baby bean be in the nursery?