Saw my GP again today. He has increased my dosage to 100mg, and I have to try taking them in the morning rather than evening because I've been waking up at 3 and 4am and then unable to sleep again for hours (or have to get up and get on with commitments, on the days I need to.)
I still feel anxious at times, but it seems to be quite intense for a few minutes or so and then I forget about it. Other times feel quite sedate. Since last weekend have had days where, for some of the time, I've felt better in myself and about life than I have for donkeys years. Had a couple of days where I got quite teary a few times, which felt significant because I've noticed I'm not having emotional reactions to some stuff I would typically feel very moved by (eg. tv shows, news items, etc). On one hand that feels a bit like part of my soul has been amputated, but on the other hand it feels like a relief - makes me realise just how much and for how long I've been far too easily triggered, lived on intense feelings.
GP said 100mg is considered a therapeutic dose, 50mg not so much, for people with significant long-term mental health symptoms. I'll start increasing to 75mg tomorrow for a week or two, aim to be up to 100mg by beginning of next month (ish).
Thinking of others who've posted on this thread, I know it has been pretty quiet but obviously @Smiles12345 hasn't been posting due to her bereavement. (Hope things have been manageable for you, Smiles. Can't imagine what you've been going through
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