@Smiles12345 hope you're doing ok, you haven't posted in a while so maybe the tablets are working and 'real life' has improved a lot for you. Would be great to read an update if you get a chance. Have you felt able to do more on your own? Sounded like you were gradually starting to see some real improvement at 50mg.
@Scaredmumma8 how has your dose increase been working out, do you feel any better yet? You were pretty anxious last time you posted and I'm sorry that has been happening during your pregnancy. Fingers crossed you've turned a corner this week and are able to relax and enjoy it more.
I guess I've had a mixed week. Started off really well because it was my niece's birthday and with one thing and another Monday and Tuesday were very festive and I felt such joy at being around her and the family. But by Tuesday night I'd had a chronic pain attack after being (physically) pain-free for a few weeks and by Wednesday I was struggling again, tired and sore and anxious that the pain was well and truly back and I might have to go on amitriptyline for it again. Had a hospital appointment Wednesday morning which wasn't particularly helpful, came home feeling depressed and tired. But late afternoon I got an urge to go for a walk with my iPod in my local wood and it turned into a kind of spiritual experience! I stood there for ages looking at the clouds and the light and the trees and the birds and felt very chilled and 'connected', even enjoyed standing in the rain for a bit and just feeling at one with everything :)
Yesterday and today have been far less remarkable and have been sleeping a lot - I'm waking up most nights at 3 or 4 then unable to sleep again for two or three hours. It's not the end of the world some days because I don't strictly have to get up for anything so I can go back to sleep for a bit when I'm ready, but even then I'm tired by the afternoon and napping for a couple of hours before dinner, or soon after lunch and then waking up around 4pm feeling a bit lost. Anyone else having this problem? I'm not working at present and a big reason for taking the medication is to get me ready to take on some work again, so the constant tiredness and infrequent good days are a big worry. I feel depressed at the thought of not being motivated or confident about being able to work in the near future. On the other hand I try to tell myself that maybe I just need to take all that pressure off myself for the time being and wait for some unbroken weeks of feeling much better once the medication kicks in properly. Maybe I need that experience before I can really expect myself to feel more prepared to start looking for work.
How's everyone else doing? If you're working, do you feel like you're managing/coping well enough to keep going?