Hope the early night helps, Smiles! I feel for you, having those surges of anxiety to cope with, but you've been really resourceful in the way you've got through them. Fingers crossed that very soon the medication will really quell much if not all of that anxiety and you'll really feel the benefit. Sometimes a counselling session will bring up difficult, anxiety-provoking feelings, and that can be hard work as well as uncomfortable, but again you're doing what you can to stay on top of that to the best of your ability, and you'll get beyond a lot of it as the weeks go by.
I've had an up and downy few days but managed to complete a few tasks along the way, so things are progressing even if it feels at times like the depression is still as intense as it was when I took the first tablet. Saturday I didn't go over the doorstep and was in bed quite a lot, but I needed that and so I tried not to put pressure on myself. Still managed to get a few little bits done around the flat. Sunday I made it out to the supermarket for a few things and again got some stuff done indoors. Yesterday I took my best friend's two little ones to school - on Mondays and Tuesdays and the occasional Wednesday I go round there for about 7.30 when she goes to work, sit and play with the kids and then walk them to school. I love it! Then I met my friend for lunch at a cafe in our local woods and sat out in the fresh air, before going to the garden centre nearby and buying some plants for my (home) office. Cleaned the bathroom last night. Today I've been shopping for groceries again and blitzed the kitchen cupboards and cleaned down the tiles and other bits and pieces and am about to read for a while before I sleep. I actually felt this evening as though the medication is kicking in coz I was cleaning like a demon, very unlike me lol.
On the other hand, I'm waking up every night between about 2 and 4am and can't sleep for a good couple of hours, sometimes more. And sleeping a fair bit in the afternoon most days. My body clock is up the wall, so I've gone from fairly solid nights sleeps on amitriptyline in recent months to virtual insomnia on the Sertraline. (Was taking amitriptyline for chronic pain which has improved a lot, so I came off it a few weeks ago.) Anyway, with any luck it's just teething problems and once the medication levels out I'll get fuller nights.
I honestly don't think the Sertraline could send you off your rocker, so try not to worry! There may be initial feelings of oddness but even they should trail off after the first few weeks. If you get that doubt, just do what you've done in your last post - remind yourself that there's no evidence to suggest that can happen to you. Again, that reassurance is you being resourceful and resilient, using your strength 